Dear Robert Paulson(Bob)...

moved.

2009-04-05T20:21:00.002+08:00

HI ALL THANK YOU FOR SUPPORTING MY LOVE AFFAIR WITH BOB!

WE HAVE GOTTEN MARRIED. YOU MAY ATTEND OUR HOUSEWARMING HERE:
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2009-04-03T20:19:00.005+08:00

i don't feel safe blogging here already.

it's so hard to find solace in a place as public as this...

im fine with people reading my useless rants / geek posts and trivial school problems

but...

think i'm relocating again.

REAL Survivor episode tonight! woooooo~~ reallocated time slot to 11.30pm. Dont miss it!

i disappointed myself

2009-04-03T20:13:00.003+08:00

i think that the content of my posts constantly gets misinterpreted. or more likely, how you interpret it depends on how well you know me.

somehow, optimistic and hopefully posts become labeled as emo, emo posts get labeled as complaints and complaints get labeled as true expression of feelings. typically if my post is about school, it's bullshit because school is too trivial to me to be considered as anything important in my life. but you cant fault blogs for being emotional anyway because there isn't exactly any other outlet you can just get stuff off your chest, across, and aimed at specific people as you wish. and even when they ask you "is it me?", to avoid awkward situations, you can always say no, but know they got the message.

this morning i cried in school. whilst not the first time, i believe it is the first i've allowed anyone to watch me cry. it's not normal and i hope it will be the last. [ok, sec4 there was once but that was a very different case altogether...ATM i was too heartbroken to care who was around]

first, thanks to everyone for their words of concern and comfort. and grace for the food. appreciate it (: i'm feeling a lot better now, with every setback like this, i learn a little more about myself and the people who surround me. and like my pastor said, obstacles like these only provide a platform to understand God and his mercies better. and so, to put an effective end to the "what happened" "are you ok" and "why did you cry" messages that i've been ignoring,

Yes. The underlying reason is of relation to Thinkquest, some project which i literally put my soul into compeleting. even though through the process, i kept complaining of the team's inconsistency and lack of commitment coupled with the problems of power shortage in Pakistan, when it all came down, i really am just disappointed in myself. generally, i am not someone who willingly commits my time and feelings into a given task easily. but when i do, it's often with a fervent passion and commitment with the i-must-and-can-only-and-will-do-well mindset. probably, you haven't seen me like that yet because i'm not good with obligations, like say, homework.

i've always thought i thrive well in especially stressful scenarios. and i convinced myself that i could and had the capability, power and responsibility to complete it, even if im alone; so i did. however, the end product proved that i'm not as strong as i thnk i am. true, i was working within a tight time constraint and was faced with a last-minute server incompatibility issue, but on hindsight, what troubled me most was my carelessness and at times wrongful decisions which hindered my process.

initially, i told myself that the outcome wouldn't matter, because i thoroughly enjoyed the process -meeting new people, learning new stuff and accomplishing tasks i never could- . up till last night, i was still sure of that. however, early this morning, something changed. i experienced regret. i did not really give it my all, and even though i had planned and laid out everything in working order, i lst my cool and succumbed to the pressure resulting in reckless decisions and resulting errors. TQ, to me, was not by any means something academic. in many ways, it meant something to me personally. and possibly, this is the first time i've truly experienced failure in something i'm determined and work hard for. i don't have many ambitions, but when i work hard for something, i expect to get it. when i plan for an activity, it runs smoothly. when i lead a project, it succeeds. and i always ensure that by putting in the extra effort required with the necessary sacrifices. hence, in retropsect, i have not done that this time, i could had done so much better and so much more.

i disappointed myself. utterly. although, in every aspect, i feel i am answerable to the team, what upsets me is that i am not answerable to myself.

lesson learnt.
i will be more careful, take things at a pace i am able to keep up to, and not be overly ambitious in the way that it may backfire on me.

now to do my 45minute timed assignement for history. i shall sit down and put my alarm to 45mins like the teacher would in class. missed history yesterday because i was downing disgusting (my virgin) Po Chai pills. see???? waste time allowing myself to fall ill and feel pity for myself.

now im worried for my PW results...have a very bad feeling about it. the problem with PW is that it is not place within a strict criterion or assessment range such that tastes and preferences are varried amongst teachers in the sense that what works for one may not always work for another. moreover, my q&a was a disaster.

2009-04-03T03:07:00.012+08:00

it's over.

in the mad rush, i made many fatal mistakes.

deppressing shit

i am such a moron.

the page i held with the most regard.......i left the script out.

and one of the most impt pages...i also left the script out.

great....totally just great

fking loser i am.

goodnight

i will just sit around and mourn.

Braindead Idea.

2009-04-01T20:29:00.003+08:00

so...today is

rickroll day,
mudkipz day,
lolcats day,
michael jackson's day,
4chan day,

and

sit on the floor day.

just kidding.

i didn't even step into the canteen.

okay enough jabber. slept a lot just now to make up for yesterday's lack of. and now i need to make up for sleeping. more tomorrow...about how depressing civics was today. (seriously)

...vicious cycle.

South Park

2009-03-30T04:33:00.005+08:00

Episode 13x03 totally pwnz the credit crisis video.

even though it constantly parodies my religion. just take it with a handful of salt. it's just a cartoon(to me), afterall.

PS. chill. the only reason i'm awake at such an hour is because i came home from church and slept from 7 - 10. -_- and i've got videos to clear anyway. hehehe

期待着彩虹，所以开了窗

2009-03-29T23:35:00.002+08:00

责任1：管理好我们和神的关系。
责任2：管理好我们和别人的关系。
责任3：管理好我们和资源的关系。

受苦的目的1：为了让人更认识上帝。
受苦的目的2：为了让人更明白耶稣的救恩。

~~~~~

或许现在的我还无法完全明白，释怀。但我会不断尝试着去体谅，接受。
愿上帝，能一直与我同在，此我力量，带领我做他所喜悦的，过着属灵的生命。

最近，真是看得多，感受自然也变多了。上帝的大爱，是如此行，章显了他的大能。
只希望，更多朋友，能如我一样，能看到他的大能已降临，也听到他的呼唤，更看到了永生的生命。
世事无绝对，唯有上帝是绝对的。

~~~~

今天我要告诉你，上帝爱你，他与你同在。
约翰3：16是如此写着：神爱世人，甚至将他的独生子赐给他们，叫一切信他的，不至灭亡，凡的永生。

~~~
你爱永不变

你流出宝血洗净我污秽
将我的生命赎回
你为了我的罪
牺牲永不悔
显明你极大恩惠

我深深体会你爱的宝贵
献上自己永追随
或伤心或气馁或生离或死别
愿刚强壮胆永远不后退

哦你爱永不变从今直到永远
深深浇灌我心田
或天旋或地转经沧海历桑田
都不能叫我与你爱隔绝

I tried to count the number of candles

2009-03-28T11:39:00.005+08:00

i've always thought of myself as one of the few who haven't really changed.

which year did i stop smiling during birthdays?

stop becoming close to my cousins?

stop talking to herrick?

stop trusting?

start to distant myself?

start to reject family?

start to cry?

which year did part of my heart die?

and when can things be right again?

this year will be different. please.

mel. this is when nostalgia can be upsetting. but uplifting. uplifting because i know i had all of that. things i always envied others had yet thought i didn't. but now i know somehow, someway, sometime, things will change. and it'll get better again.

well, hope keeps us going.

esp. the hope promised to us in the Bible - the Kingdom of Heaven -

it's weird.

i just teared 5minutes ago. but now...i'm happy. thankful. relieved.

Praise the Lord.

Upset

2009-03-28T06:30:00.002+08:00

want to die. want to cry. i dont know what i want.

my mother act smart go off the lights when i told her not to. and i forgot i had to wake up. i kept waking up in the night but went back to sleep. sucks. my mind unconsciously asking me to wake up and i didn't know i needed to respond.

missed survivor.

wasted 4 hours of thinkquest time.

blah blah blah.

and the pakistan kids have not sent me their part of the content.

i think i must be stressed. because i feel like crying over little things as such.

why can't they just upload something so at least i'll have something to work with???

three weeks and all i get is this.

very upset.

but the stress is enjoyable.

still very upset.

upset because i know it could be so much better.

at least i woke in time for My Love, My Home, like that's any consolation

SERIOUSLY?

2009-03-26T21:37:00.002+08:00

Did Ms Krishnan tag me or am i just hallucinating? Please tell me that i'm hallucinating, lest i incure a heart attack...

it's so embarrassing! to have teachers read your blog. especially with the nature of mine and the retardity of certian posts. (yes, i am conscious of them.) All in the name of good fun, no?

Thinkquest is getting very tiring, especially that it's ending and i don't think we're even remotely close to something worthy of winning. one can only persevere for so long alone. Harsh, but it really does feel that way. though i admit i have slackened already, it's so difficult to keep going when everyone else stays stagnant and even harder to work with nothing. Still, i'm quite happy with myself, and what i've managed to achieve thus far in such a short span of time. though if the project falls through, it will probably amount to nothing but a waste efforts/time. and perhaps high blood pressure.

TBH, i don't believe that the process is important. it's all bullshit. everyone only sees the outcomes. i want my outcome!! it's the first time(since DHS) i've actually felt like there's an opportunity presented to me, and quite honestly i want to prove that i'm capable of being that leader, even if they don't think i am able to. yet, look, it's starting to show them right. i already tried very hard to push them already, but i guess doing a project through time and space really isn't all that simple. we have different expectations and different goals, i presume, so the quality and effort differs accordingly as well?

Still, there is hope in trying, no? afterall, 2xx days still feels awfully long to me.

In any case, anybody wants to catch Gran Torino with me?

It's Clint Eastwood's first on-screen(not production) appearance since Million Dollar Baby(2004). Ack, forget it. Somehow, i doubt this is a movie that will appeal to most of my peers.

Shall attempt to ask Supeng. But think we'll end up watching Detroit Metal City or something to that extent. anything, but shopaholic and i'll be okay. (cue bad feeling)

PS. i'm so sorry that i'm still blogging. harhar. it's an addiction to make merry with Bob

/edit 10:58pm
i think i'm a psychic.

boo!~ says:
i think supeng wants the confessions of a shopaholic
she keeps talking about it

By Half An Hour

2009-03-25T19:40:00.004+08:00

democracy.

start of something now

non conformist

dare to be different

功归他人，过属自己

****

thankies hongwen for the nice cake :D for our benefit, you should open a bakery instead of going accounting.
and june for the mNms even though your intention was to make me fat-ter ;@

ohmygosh june this looks like you ;@ ;@ ;@ ;@
神猪.

for some reason i really can't stand rain li.

we used to be close.

2009-03-24T21:00:00.002+08:00

then my cousin grew up and hung out with the older cousins instead.

i decided this part was very embarrassing and silly so i decided to take it down for the time being. to summarise, it describes how disgusting a glutton i used to be, especially after i got into upper primary and stopped swimming. alrighty (:

hahaha just in case i forget my childhood when i grow old. i shall make posts like this once in a while. reminiscing makes me happy anyway. but got a lot of pictures and things can't really put up on such public places haahahha. pity.

PS. i always loved the beach.

Duncha

2009-03-24T14:39:00.003+08:00

wish your blog was as pretty as mine?

okay, actually the background kind of hurts my eyes after awhile. shall dim it when i get home tonight. and make the hearts smaller.

righty!

off to my doom. history forever!

big update tonight (:

but for now, just to kill time and keep away from undone homework, we're only 15 days away from RW/RR Challenge: The Duel II! My second favourite reality show ever, even though i don't really like it in 'The Duel' format.

Heck! GO katie! Rip kim's hairrrrrrrrrr!!!!! sigh, no evelyn. and i'm guessing CT's going to get sent home for busting Adam's head. rest of the cast looks good too. looking forward to lots of drama, as always.

I LOVE MTV!

Replaced.

2009-03-23T22:09:00.004+08:00

so this is how it is huh?

vicious cycle repeats! whirlwind.

go pigeot!

not good enough. change!

go blastoise!

still not enough? change!

go pikachu!

hey cool. me wanna join too!

go mewtwo!

and me! me! me!

go charizard! go zapdos! go articuno!

yes!!!!! we win!!! WOOOO! celebrate!

congrats!

hey, i want to join too! i'm a moltres!

okay, prove it!

(spits fire)

alright you're in. hey, you there, what about you? a mew?

.
.
.
.

no thanks, i'd rather be a Caterpie.

DHS LOST&FOUND

2009-03-23T20:41:00.005+08:00

stupid lost and found blog. i keep typing the wrong url because i never knew "and" = "n". worse, it gave me false hopes.

FALSE HOPES THAT I COULD FIND MY THUMBDRIVE

i am very upset now.
going to listen to emo death music.

as i type this my ideas and scripts are being stolen. already spotted some thieving going on.
i am very irritated too.

goodbye.

/edit
a little late, but did we have any holiday homework?

Eating

2009-03-22T18:39:00.000+08:00

Wanted to sit down and write myself a list of the things i did the most this week. I got stuck after No.1.

Today i added my childhood bestie to facebook. and to my horror, i could no longer recognise him. my gosh, i even thought i added the wrong person and perhaps they only had the same name. but NO! same person! damn sure because his brother was on his friends list. it has only been 5+ years. sigh, really quite upset with myself.

so you can imagine my shock and awe last year when a totally random person i did not even talk with in primary school recognised and called out to me. and you can forgive my tactless response.

back to us.
we used to be the 3 musketeers. or at least what we were called. just instead of swords we would combat using lightsabers. HAHA!

hurriedly rummaged through the storeroom for some old photo albums. so awfully nostalgic. and nope, i never found any of our pictures. only with family and cousins. mostly siblings. one or two with my other childhood bestie. still talk now, but no longer close.

from what i remember, besides my ang moh boyfriend(ROFL) who i still remember the name of, and some nursery/kindergarten friends whom i no longer remember the names of, i had 3 childhood besties. all guys. which explains why i'm like this. 2 of them i no longer keep in contact with.

it's kind of depressing. depressing because we really used to be close. and we (sorta) grew up together. wonder if they still remember me...

and i used to be a very touchy kid who liked to hug my siblings/friends and fling my arm around them.

oh. and i liked to pose...a lot. and to 耍宝.
(think this was already obvious from the childhood pictures i posted last yr)

alright. i scanned some of the pictures. will post them another time, probably. now i need to go out for dinner. eateateat again >.<

friends...remember to take many pictures of your kids growing up! (while they're still cute and cuddly) make video compilations! surely a damn good memory next time. and dress them up in pretty pink / tuxedos. and let them wear crocs!! trust me, crocs look good on little children.

Irony

2009-03-21T20:45:00.002+08:00

Oh goodness.

Sudden realisation that my previous entries have been so geeky and loser sounding. The only normal human sounding one was the post for Mel.

(gasp)

this must be the real me. A NERD! oh yea, that's what my MBTI test said too. am destined to be a nerd forever, more power to me!! ...here i go again.

***

As i was saying, Irony.

My brother has gone overseas(India) as a temp staff. i think that's pretty damn cool, and it shows how highly valued his Boss deems him to be. i'm not sure what he's there for, but not many temps get such opportunities for sure. sometimes it's hard, the yardsticks he sets for us, and his academic excellence that parents sometimes (possibly) unintentionally compare. nothing less of a high achiever, for sure.

That's not the point of this post anyway.

Point is the irony of him going to India. Somewhere at the start of the year i told him that i wanted to go do internship there, like for a month to experience a (TOTAL) different culture and environment, living in the slumps.(with no relation to Slumdog Millionaire whatsoever..) i thought it would be a wonderful eye-opener and experience. besides, the thought of having an entire month to only myself is kinda exciting. like taking a break from civilisation.

So anyhow, he was amused, akin to disbelief. Something along the lines of a bad idea, of all places, wouldn't be able to last a week, what's more a month in those conditions. and there are better places to choose from anyway. Haha. and now? he's the one there!

Anyway, i can't really choose a better place. Hope it's going well for him though, let test the waters for me. haha. even though he stole my light! Ah, oh well.

Melly Poo

2009-03-21T08:59:00.005+08:00

To my dearest, teensy weensy(short), butt-kicking, sexy kung-fu heroine melly poo, phoebe, mrs gerard way, britney, slut&whore-wannabe, pretend-joe, skinny bitch, my secret admirer and #1 fan,

this post is dedicated to you.

HAPPY 18TH BIRTHDAY! HAVE THE MOST AWESOME BIRTHDAY AND DON'T SPEND IT SLEEPING! hope you have a good time(in more ways than one) at TP. will definitely miss you many many!

WE LOVE YOU!!
keep in contact! and keep us updated! if you get a bf(because you're hot and curvy) w/o telling me, i will kill you.

By the way, i'm so thankful that you're a shortie. else, you wouldn't had paired with Ham to sit in front of Eva and I and there wouldn't be cupcakes nor ties!! so...i guess what i'm saying is...embrace your height! and keep on working towards that skinny bitch goal :D

PS. Happy 18th to everyone else, too, whom I've not written a post on. Well, please be forgiving, you're not going away to a distant foreign universe, you see.

Bob.

2009-03-20T20:34:00.005+08:00

Hi All.

i realised that i haven't blogged about how i spent my hols yet. well, it's just been the usual, going out, hanging around, watching videos, eating, sleeping and not doing anything productive(homework).

Just wanted to say I have the prettiest banner. ever.

very very very very very loosely inspired by Bob and George which i used to enjoy reading in primary school amongst many other webcomics because i am a geek. nah, they are hilarious. and in pri school there was really an abundance of time, can go out, eat, sleep, hang around, watch videos, play ball(SERIOUS!), not do anything productive and still have extra time to spare. (ahhh...those were the days)

FYI, my affinity for Bob DOES NOT originate from the comic. it is from my genuine love for Bob. in other words, BOB IS REAL!

i still read webcomics now, just less and not so often anymore. stopped for a while and couldn't catch up ~.~ too many, too fast.

OMYFK! I JUST DID A QUICK CHECK ON ALL MY ANCIENT FAVOURITE WEBCOMICS AND A MODEST DESTINY CAN NOW BE BOUGHT ON ITUNES? OMYGOSH. THAT'S LIKE SUPER COOL! it was my favourite recreation! alongside Days of Our Lives! KEEDING. i have other hobbies okay like going out, eating, sleeping, watching videos, playing ball, maybe even wrestling. hahahaahahaha. and omybbqchickenwings, AMD has new updates o.O i thought i read the ending years ago. oh my gosh, i'm so excited! this ought to make up for not being able to watch Survivor tonight.

everyone go and read ok! hahahhaahahah okay nobody will. but i promise you it will be amazing, even my super niao primary school friend was influenced into reading it. (assuming tastes&prefs still applicable now)

damn. i seem to be doing a lot of reminiscing lately... everything i do just seems to link back to primary / lower sec.

Henry Kelly

2009-03-19T10:01:00.014+08:00

YESSSS I FINALLY FIXED MY BITCH OF A MICRO SD! OHMYGOOOOOODNESS I AM SUCK A GEEK.
NOW I CAN UPLOAD ALL MY SARA EVANS AND KIMYA DAWSON SONGS TO MY PHONE. but must remove other songs because not enough space..oh my :( okay i sound pathetic.

moving on...

so i reorganised my files and playlists. so many wonderful old songs i forgot i had and lyrics so amazing i need to know them all. should had totally organised my files earlier.

and when i was snooping around my sec1 blog's file manager...jackpot! think i first watched it on weebl. this song is genius.

also found other songs there, supposedly my favourite songs, i assume. eeeeeeeeek, most of them i don't remember ever listening to and will never listen to anymore. i think it's the jiamin-influence in lower sec. rofl

this is my current addiction (which i have just embeded to my blog -amongst others- not because i want to annoy but because i am a firm believer of "good things must be shared"...)
cutest video. ever.

so fking brilliant.

*****
haha. now there is a new virus going around via msn. i think it's so amusing to see who are the people sending it to you. cause like it's on diet pills and weight loss. haha. meaning the people who are sending it around are not only too dense to not realise that it's a virus but are also desperate for the pills. hahahaah okay it's not funny coming from me because i look like i need the pills -_- ...right. now that was funny. hmmm and wouldn't it be hilarious if i were sending the virus around too unknowingly right now???!!! okay, don't try to fake me.

LJ!!!!!!

2009-03-19T07:28:00.006+08:00

Louis Koo declares he will return to TVB in 2 years to film series

Yesterday Louis attended a TV awards ceremony, he revealed that he still has a 20 episodes contract with TVB, since it does not have a deadline, therefore it has been delayed till now and still not fulfilled.

PLEASEPLEASEPLEASEPLEASEPLEASEPLEASEPLEASE FILM IT WITH JESSICA HSUAN PLEASEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! IT WOULD MAKE ME SO FRKING HAPPIEEE!!!!!!! BUTBUTBUTBUTBUT TWO YEARS? OMYGOSH! I WILL BE TWENTIE BY THEN!!!

Which female artist does he want to collaborate with? Louis expressed that he has not thought of this yet, he denied he is afraid of rumors, only because in recent years when filming movies he has worked more with male artists.

RUBBISH!!! HE JUST DOESN'T WANT TO ADMIT THAT HE IS DATING WITH JESS HSUAN!! IM SURE HE IS! HE HAS TO BE. HE HAD BETTER :@

When Louis presented an award to Tavia Yeung, Tavia Yeung praised that Louis is handsome, and acted like a young fan requesting a hug.

OMAHBEEGEEZERS GO AWAY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

IMMA LJ FANGURLLXZXZ

Gay Mood

2009-03-18T21:38:00.001+08:00

Watchmen was kinda entertaining, yet a disappointment. did i have too high expectations? In any case, Alan Moore was right.

moving on..

watched EuroTrip again with some good company... hahahaahahahaha. and travis wester is still a freaking cutie!!! in the show, that is. (recall my post a few years back)

one of my biggest guilty pleasures for sure! along with cruel intentions, wild things and ~~mean girls~~ she's the man. i consider mean girls a somewhat well-made movie. HAAHAHAHHAHA. /dies. only till WOWP:The Movie is done filming though...i think it will almost def make my 'guilty' list. unless it's well-made. kinda doubtful though, as much as a fan i am. hahahaaha hello can they hurry up already!!! this is going to make me a loser but i already watched all the WOWP episodes and secretly think selena gomez is rather cool. primarily because she seems nice.(r than miley cyrus at least)

speaking of gomez, omygosh she and demi debuted on BARNEY?? so funny. kay la, know i'm slow. i'm not updated with Disney you see...(not that much of a loser yet.) and i've never watched a single episode of Barney before, although i know half the song....

hahaaaaaaaarrr

and since i'm on a loser streak, i shall confess that i used to enjoy watch sleepover club many many many years back and was so *sniff cough sniff* sad when it stopped broadcasting! pretty sure i'm not alone... c'mon my 21yr old bro watches Disney too. (oops, haha)at least I don't watch fairly odd parents! Or american dragon jake long. Or any other cartoon for that matter. (except totally spies on rare occasions because it's like Charlie's Angels)

PS. whatever happened to Days of Our Lives? probably my fav show ever. I've been watching it dutifully every day since I was 7(starting from the point where this girl was kinda possessed). Then, at 14/15 it suddenly stopped playing on channel 5 before baywatch. Irresponsible Mediacorp :( i never got to know what happened to carey, austin, lucas, sami, mike, john, stefano, hope, lexis, bo, will, abe secret island, salem and all the other characters that i can't even remember the name of.

right.. off to reorganise and update my playlist. need to change all my titles back. TEDIOUS!!! and read up on Days Of Our Lives even though it's impossible to catch up or (possibly) even to understand.

LOOOOOOOOOOONG dream

2009-03-17T23:32:00.004+08:00

been so tired/lazy these days and it's not like i've been busy or accomplishing anything because i haven't. even to the point that i don't feel like going out. can i pangseh tomorrow? :\ so tempting but i won't.

anyway i had this super long and complicated dream yesterday. i will try to do a recap but i'm afraid i've already forgotten part of it. this will surely come across as incoherent with loose edges and plot holes. duh, that's how dreams are. and certain scenes are missing. lol. here goes...

so it starts off in the com lab that does not look like a com lab and we’re learning something from a relief teacher and he is dreadful. and from china. we don’t understand anything yet he leaves us to complete the rest of the assignment which we (duh) could not.

i think it was my ex tuition teacher who was, likewise, awful. it took me 2 months to complete 4 lessons before i could finally ditch him and his wrong formulas. never looked back since and never got another teacher.

but anyway, sudd this guy comes to class and i think he is a retainee in our class and so he’s learning something else from the noob teacher at the teacher’s table away from us. then, i thought he told me that he was doing some boring beginner thingy so i looked over and said “wah that sucks.” and the noob teacher glared at me and scolded me “HE IS DOING SOME (INSERT CHEEM PROGRAMMING LANGUAGE HERE) AND HE IS BETTER THAN YOU.”

kay, whatever. don’t need to get all protective. i was just trying to start a friendly conversation with the new classmate. sheesh. annoying uncalled for comments.

“at least i know English.”

ahahahahahaahahaaahahaahahaah. i didn’t laugh out loud but i felt very shuang saying it. hahahaah. and he gave me a very meek “i can speak English ok”
sure sure… if he really were the loser maths tutor i got then his English is sure damn good… “open up open up this number ok??” lol lol lol you want me to dissect it and remove it’s intestines too huh huh huhhhhhhh?

kay i have nothing against china ppl (ask fandi!) and this is offtrack but my mum went shopping once and the china saleswoman told her “China is going to take over the world one day” talk about scary people and their conspiracies.

back to the story. i forgot what happened already but i was at this glass room and ties were also there carrying stuff into the room like some kinda house movers and there were all antique stuff like reel2reel tapes, antique video recorders, phones, laptops and what not. must be because i spent the morning reading on the evolution of tech stuff. wah very interesting leh, did you know the first mobile phone ever made was the Motorola DynaTac 8000x and it cost FOUR THOUSAND DOLLARS?? kay i’m a geek but anyway i didn’t stop to ask why cause for some weird reasons i was rushing to go bathe. so the girls bathroom was like……kay la the bathing scene was weird and i found out that some of my friends were actually (you know..) the-L-word. omgosh. see la when you read precious blogs you become like this. haven't been there since the hols though.

after bath i was like sudd at this other room which was weird la cause i didn’t even walk there. and there was like an area where lots of ppl sat and it looked like the Sentosa Musical Fountain show place. but in truth they were waiting for lecture to start. o.O walked over and hongwen was there so i sat next to him to ask him about smthing. forgot what. then he sudd asked me about angel/mortal if i bought the presents alrdy.

i was like (gasp) did i? and i recalled myself rushing to m&s after church the previous day to buy hard liquor for my angel. yea hard liquor at m&s -_- (maybe cause we went over to buy biscuits 2 weeks back.) but, like, panic!!! my hard liquor not with me i must had left it in the com lab. so i asked hw to wait and i went look for it and sudd i was at the entrance of the room that we were at. (so like the com lab is in the same room as the bathing room the musical fountain room and the glass room. they are all like side by side like in this layout – not drawn to scale)

then when i came in saw grace putting her bag down by the chairs and asked her if we were having computing here. WHICH IS SUPER WEIRD CAUSE RECALL I JUST HAD COMPUTING! she was like “ya” and i was like great and then i walked out of the room. (facepalm) whatever that was for, walking away from where lessons were to be held. so i u-turned back and Candice was at the door and she asked me if i wanted (some funny hard liquor which does not exist) and i somehow thought she was asking me if i left my (some funny hard liquor which does not exist) behind and i was like (because i was supposed to use it for angel&mortal) and then she bent down to get it for me and when she stood up she transformed into zhixin who poured me a drink. i was like O.O super confused, stunned, yadayada then jon teo and eechow walked past me and laughed.

yea, thanks.

then i went in and like saw ties w/o eva setting up their antique equipment by the TV. and walah! it was a video featuring mainly the vball team on some overseas trip…. and jiamin. zhixin wasn’t in it cause she couldn’t go. the filming was horrible but xinhui insisted she did a good job filming it and kept laughing and laughing. boom. i only managed to see one scene.

jiamin steps out of the limo. vball team steps out of the limo. (like in a line facing 45 degrees front) melissa steps out of the limo in front of jiamin (oh wow the star!!) and she tries to swagger in front but her sunglasses suddenly breaks and hangs from her nose.
NOW XINHUI, BEHIND ME AT THE TABLE IS IN AN UPROAR. doing her usual exaggerated crazy woman laugh.

i walked away. to where hongwen was to tell him that i found my present. but i wanted to get another one because it was dumb so i asked if we can postpone angel&mortal final day by one. but he sudd changed place and sat next to poryee. hahaahahahha. ok there was an aisle inbetween. derrick was next o him now and eva next to derrick.
like this:

but i suddenly sat down next to hongwen. so derrick must had disappeared (i figure) and i wanted to talk to him but he was too engaged in his conversation with his lover (husband) poryee so i talked to eva instead who was furiously pressing the screen of this super mini game console with a stylus.

(gasp!) new DS?? DSi LITE?

nope. she told me it was called “PLASTIC WII”. portable version of WII. hilarious. did they come with mini tennis rackets and nun chunks too? tried to play it but the game was wholly in jap! PLASTIC WII was only compatible with jap games! (wah, sounds like candice’s, no?) hahahaha so i gave up even though eva kept trying to explain to me how to play the game and all the functions but i couldn’t be bothered. woah eva was a rpg guru. Justus didn’t appear in my dream so maybe Justus possessed eva for that part of the dream.

and then what happened??

something i can't recall, clearly.

ARIEEEEEEEEEEEL <3

2009-03-14T08:30:00.002+08:00

OMYGOSH SHE IS GOING TO RECORD AN ALBUM SOON WOAH! IM SO EXCITED AND HAPPY FOR HER OMYGOSHHHHHHHH SHE FINALLY GOT OVER HER MENTAL BARRIER.

WOOH~~~

EUPHORIA

freaking thumbdrive

2009-03-12T10:37:00.004+08:00

i lost my thumbdrive and i have absolutely no mood to do anything else but watch tv and blog and listen to emo music.

some yr5 csc class suddenly came into the com lab and in the mad rush to go off, i left my thumbdrive behind!

all my classifieds, scripts, codes and stuff i don't have back-up for GONE!!! and worse, probably even being used by someone else now. image doing PW and losing your latest draft to another group doing the exact same topic as you and you're only about one week away from the due date.

worst, i have like randomly placed emo notes in random files because i randomly feel emo when i am randomly writing random files and just randomly want to randomly pen down my randomly emo random thoughts.

i want to die.

but. all hope is not lost.

i have devised an evil plan to dedicate heavy metal in the canteen for the entire peak hour this friday and make announcements that the music won't stop until someone returns me my thumbdrive which has obviously been taken by someone. anyway i'll be donating either way so might as well make good use of the music society's music services. and if it doesn't work, at least i'll feel compensated emotionally. and have other people feel as frustrated as me.

hehhhhehhhh.

WOOHOOOOOOO!!

moving on...

2009-03-11T20:21:00.005+08:00

you're doing it so quickly i can't keep up. i really really really wish we'd have crazy late night chat sessions like before but i guess it's not possible anymore. you've grown so distant and perhaps i have too.

guess this is life, huh?
meetings. partings. and hopefully, reunions.

glad to hear from you today though.
keep. going. strong! and that goes for all my other friends too.

****

on a separate note, history test today was awful. try having a test outside the HOD room for 90mintues with the Scouts practicing their lion dance noise just by ZXY. what a disaster. even without the test, they would had driven me insane. totally could not keep track of my thoughts and my arguments were all over the place. i'm pretty sure a number of my sentences didn't even make sense.

but at least they kept me awake for that full 90minutes! even though i kinda doubt anyone could sleep on a history paper. been feeling awfully tired today despite sleeping just a little past 9 yesternight. i think i'm dying.

oh well!

moving on...

'08 A LVL Results

2009-03-09T21:33:00.002+08:00

whoops. 2nd post today, forgot about it just now.

WITH NO OFFENSE INTENDED. just my own thought process which happens to concur with other peers. i'm just not as easily convinced.

Year 08 A-lvl Results = Remarkable achievement for the school because they took only a year to achieve what VJC took 10years to.

Question:
achievement of school = achievement of students?
OR
achievement of school at the expense of the achievement of students?

Question:
weren't the 08 A-level batch handpicked to participate in DHP because they were the top 5-10%?
why are they now relegated into comparison with the top 70% of the batch who went on to the top 5 JCs?

Question:
Is lack of staff just an excuse?
Should the school had forced it's way into DHP even though they could not gather enough teachers?

Question:
Would our seniors had been capable of better elsewhere?
To what extent were their unsatisfactory grades due to insufficient effort put into studies?

many many many many many questions i want to ask. i just feel it is so much of a pity for the seniors.. but most important question.

Can we, 09 batch, do better?
definitely.

and i better get to work if i want to do better. somehow, i can't feel the urgency yet.

SPLATTT

2009-03-09T20:51:00.004+08:00

Yesterday was without doubt the best day of my year so far! A day of many many many beautiful happenings, even though Guang Ping gave me the largest fright of my life. Oh, and for the first time ever, Yi Shan came running(!) towards me calling me 老师.

丽娟传道 returned from her position overseas to visit us and gave a sermon. Very very inspiring I must say, and as she shared with us her experience at a childcare for abandoned children with birth defects, it sparked that compassion in me to want to attach myself to some NPO for the June holidays since school days were so busy. Came home and wanted to check on SCS to see if there were openings, but the timings and venues were not too convenient for me and I wasn't sure if I would be able to cope once schoolwork starts accumulating. After all, a clash of schedules was what ended my volunteering at CC.

God really has a plan for me. As he does for the rest of us, no matter what they teach us in GP and whatever extremist videos they show us, there is indeed evidence of his existence and the credibility of the Bible. So, Christianity is not baseless. In fact, truth of the Bible has been proven by Science. Or, to put in a religious perspective, Science has been proven true by the Bible. Yet, evolution, to me, is another Just-So story.

Away from the sidetracking, there was an exhibition by 'Splat' in school today. And guess what? They came to offer us volunteering opportunities for the unprivileged youths.

Talk about conincidences...

Just for now

2009-03-07T22:24:00.002+08:00

Is it so difficult to give me some commitment?

does it not concern you too?

i've had enough of your vows and self-proclaimed dedication. i don't need work of this grade. i can rush something out and it would still be better than that junk of yours.

i just wish you would be less selfish and a little bit more sensitive to every one else.

Last night...

2009-03-06T22:41:00.001+08:00

To dream that you have lockjaw, signifies there is trouble ahead for you, as some person is going to betray your confidence. For a woman to see others with lockjaw, foretells her friends will unconsciously detract from her happiness by assigning her unpleasant tasks. If stock have it, you will lose a friend.
Source: 10 000 Dream Interpretations, by Gustavus Hindman Miller

Hokay, noted.

MOOOOOMOOOOO

2009-03-06T21:12:00.000+08:00

OMYGOSH I FEEL LIKE SUCH AN IDIOT FOR SPENDING SO MUCH TIME FIGURING OUT THE SCRIPT!!! THE SOLUTION WAS SO SIMPLE! AND APPARENT!

SIGH.

BUT AT LEAST I SOLVED IT.

WOOOHOOOOOOOOOO!!!! NOW TO START MY D.E. (LOL)

2HRS TO WATCHING COACH GROPE GIRLS OR SMTHING TO THAT EXTENT. HAHAHAHAAHAHAH MORON.

Feels Like Death

2009-03-05T20:26:00.004+08:00

大條！

2009-03-03T21:32:00.004+08:00

Bubble tea straws in Taiwan have been tested and found to contain lead which is harmful to our health when absorbed by the body even in small amounts. Think it gives rise to retardation.

especially for colours orange and yellow.

(gasp!)

Lets see if less people are consuming bubble tea tomorrow...

HAPPY MOOD

2009-03-02T08:13:00.005+08:00

WOOOOOOOOOHOOOOOOOOOO! I TOTALLY PWN WYSIWYG EDITOR.

I WINNNNNNNNN!!!!!!!!

LIFE IS BEAUTIFUL!

OFF TO FREAKING SCHOOL.

He's Just Not That Into You

2009-03-01T22:19:00.006+08:00

caught this today because I had absolutely nothing better to do. (joke)

despite an interesting cast, which was what interested me, (READ: scarlett johansson, jenn an, bradley cooper, woohoo), this movie was a very b-o-r-i-n-g and fail attempt at love actually. and i didn't even like love actually!

:(

today has been a damn good day though :D

haven't accomplished much this weekend but it's been a good break :) back to school and hard work tomorrow after i get my file :)

PS. lets watch The Wrestler next week please! It's not a (uh) guys film. It's about lifeeeeeeeeeeeeeee. alternatively, i can annoy myself with small screens and lousy effects by watching it on my computer.

yea, that sounds good.

uh, screw. Watchmen is out next week. hahahaah lets go for that instead! wrestler may not even be on anymore :X

I LOVE ARIEL

2009-02-28T19:38:00.009+08:00

hello all my post is a few weeks late but...WATCH ARIEL ON CHNL U - LEGEND OF THE CONDOR HEROES, WEEKENDS 7.30PM okay ppl! take a break from all that mugging and catch it. super super super good show. i'm watching it for the 2nd time. not biased! voted best LOCH version ever! nice soundtracks too :D

wooooooooooooooooo~~

/edit
MELLYNA WHAT HAPPENED TO YOUR BWOG?

同一屋檐下

2009-02-28T07:17:00.003+08:00

is showing on tv again!

omygosh! like one of the best chnl8 modern dramas ever! still rmbr watching it in pri6 but it was so long ago i can't really remember what happened already. okay. going to watch it now, goodbye!

/edit
relive eliza's[fan vs favs] facial expressions:
http://link.brightcove.com/services/link/bcpid14096667001/bclid14120439001/bctid14364865001

Missing File

2009-02-27T19:59:00.004+08:00

TWO DAYS ALREADY AND I STILL CAN'T FIND MY STUPID LOSER BUGS BUNNY FILE!!! ALL MY NOTES AND WORKSHEETS AND LOUSY TEST RESULTS ARE INSIDE!!!!!!

HELP!

/edit 28Feb09 5.40am
losing my file was such a big deal that i slept at 9pm last night. i set an alarm to wake up later but i think this is the first time i did not hear it ring. (normally i hear it but ignore it) i must had been very affected because i even missed survivor in the process!!

ack. but thanks to my quick wits, i offered a cash reward for it and woke up to lots of "i help you", "what colour is ur file", "i found it" comments this morning. now i know that it is safely (or not) hidden in one of the classrooms in school.

so,
I CAN RETRIEVE IT COMING MONDAY AND PEACE AND STABILITY SHALL BE RESTORED! after mrs chang scolds me for not doing tutorials again

Booboo Street

2009-02-26T20:55:00.000+08:00

i am such a loser. i think i'm driving myself insane.

i spent my afternoon crying in bed over the same stupid thing again. and once the mind starts, it doesn't stop. and, well they all just keep coming back - memories that should had never existed; memories that i don't deserve. ugly ugly memories.

to add on, i failed 2 tests today. math test because i'm just too stupid to know the answers and econs because my mind just didn't want to work. idk. spent at least 10minutes staring at the question before proceeding to read it over at least 5 times till it registered. needless to say, i did not complete my essay. not happy with myself but tests are least of my worries now, really.

and my stupid ulcer isn't helping either. like swollen and throbbing. and the freaking wound on my elbow which hasn't seen improvements in its healing in a week. hope it's just deep and not infected. and flu. and cough. and the weight of the fking burden. it's all so tiring and i wish i could sleep it all away.

weekends please come quick!! meanwhile, i'm going to take a nap before tonight's emergency meeting o.O

appreciate it if nobody asks.

Vectors = boring.

2009-02-25T22:36:00.002+08:00

i gave up.

oamgee. i rly have a very bad attitude towards studying. but it's just soooooooooo boringggg! so torturous im just stoning at my vector notes because my mind just doesn't want to read it anymore. gosh. but people have really died of boredom. so i suppose stopping now = saving myself.

march holidays come quick! i need it to catch up with everyone elses' pace without forcing myself to read stupid notes just to take a test. it doesn't work this way. the brain is just unwilling and unable to under such circumstances.

goodnight.

i will cont in school tomorrow.

The future looks gleam...

2009-02-25T19:47:00.006+08:00

but not for me.

woahh..just woke up from my (deep) slumber. so much for studying for tomorrow's math and econs test. aye, but i'm sick..so must forgive myself :D

no worries! i still have time to attack 'describing the macroeconomy' and 'vectors' tonight! lucky other topics for maths are sufficiently easy(i hope)...but mr koh's notes is really super messy and unnecessarily long that reading it is such a (confusing) chore. i think this hols i need to write my own notes for it...with my summarising skills i think i can summarise into 3 pages. HAHA. not necessarily a good thing either, for exams. Personal preference bah.

woah shit omgosh got dragonball movie. wthell ahahahaahah looks damn stupid even though i used to love dragonball. i don't really want to know how hollywood is going to interpret dragonball. 2009 is such an interesting year....legend of chunli, monoply and now dragonball?

btw, whoever who was sitting behind me in lecture today was friggin irritating. (offence intended) some people really think they are saints. they are 100% gold. WOOOOOOOOOOOO!! or more appropriately put - machines programmed to do things with 100% accuracy. yayyyeeee themm!! :DD

just too bad the rest of us aren't.
AH! i think there's this phase. this phase where every one wants to be something they are not, wants to be someone big and noticeable when they are not. i guess it's innate in human nature(maybe), teachers, students, we all try too hard sometimes. what differs is how long we allow such behaviour to continue or if we eventually let it become us..

kay lah. going to eat dinner watch 7pm show read forums edit my temp then study.

Slumdog Millionaire

2009-02-23T23:53:00.001+08:00

feel good movie of the decade

seriously? lol.

Have been wanting to watch this since last year with all those raving reviews i've been reading about it. Kudos to the school for bringing us to watch this film, even though, i'm confused over their intentions for doing so.

Okay...here goes my quick account of the movie.

First I will establish and agree that Slumdog Millionaire, indeed, is a good film to catch. Entertaining, definitely. However, i wouldn't call it a great film. In fact, i think it has been overrated. IMO, there has been too much hype over this movie just because it is a deviation from the norm of Bollywood - being an effort from Danny Boyle and all. that, or probably because 2008 has not been such a good year for films. Or maybe because it provided the west (and the rest of the world maybe) to a little window on how India could be. In addition, unconsciously, such buildup may influence our feelings when watching the movie. I'll admit i was guilty of that; initially. C'mon, best movie ever? Slumdog? You serious???

plot holes aside, whilst, the film(though unrealistic) did bring out a hint of the message - 'hope'(apart from disfigured orphans) as it approached its ending and is told in a somewhat clever manner, i can't help but think the plot as a cliche love story which overlooked character development as it unfolded. it started off very well, with the protagonists portrayed in their childhood. however, the teenage or adulthood versions failed to uphold those standards, with very average actings. yes, even dev patel.

if anything, coming from a Brit, Slumdog should be acknowledged for its astounding(genius) music and beautiful cinematography, despite poor edits in a few scenes(typical Boyle).

(ohmygosh i just remembered that i have yet to checked the Oscars winning list for this year... okay, 8 oscars for Slumdog. So anyway,)

the bottom line is, even though Slumdog Millionaire swept 8 Oscars, it will not be one which is enduring. in fact, i think TheDarkKnight will enjoy a longer lifespan that it. (i say this w/o any bias, having never been a fan of the batman series) nonetheless, it was an entertaining film, just a little too hyped up and overrated.

but of course, we don't have to take every film so seriously. unless it has been given 8 Oscars and waohmygawshsomcuhattention.

well, every one's titled to their own opinions. and this jsut happens to be mine.

now im just waiting for the wrestler and frost/nixon to hit local cinemas.
***********

Rest of the post is somewhat graphic. and do know i don't normally do things like these...

Injuries from my fall on 20th Feb, Friday, 2009:
(pictures taken yesterday (22nd Feb)

still got some cuts on my knees but didn't take any pics. the elbow one really quite gross. it was bleeding for 2 days w/o my knowledge. i removed the bandaid last sat when i was at macs waiting for the meeting to start and accidentally left a blood trail on the glass panel -_-||haha but not painful anymore...i guess the aloe vera gel worked after all.

my mum scolded me when she found out. she says now i will really never get married with all these scars -_- i think she is really afraid that i won't. but i really very long never fall down already!!!! achievement!

Injury from idk-what on 13th Feb, Friday, 2009:
There was another one on my knee but it looked super gruesome when i tried to take a picture of it so i decided not to upload it. June says it's because i kept crawling around her room at night even though i have completely no recollection of that happening.

Gross lah got discolouration one -_-

SO ANYWAY, the purpose of those pictures is that...i noticed something.
i got injuries on two simultaneous fridays that i went out for sleepovers!!! which means in order to prevent any future mishaps, i should just avoid going out on friday nights and stay home to watch Survivor like i'm supposed to.

totally.

:D

GOODNIGHT! need to catch up on my sleep cause i think im coming down with something again :(

i fell down yesterday

2009-02-21T15:52:00.009+08:00

who the hell said that aloe vera gel relieves pain????????????

IM IN HELL A LOT OF PAIN NOW DAMMIT. OH I THINK MY ELBOW IS ROTTING. I CANT MOVE IT. OHMYGOSH FEELS ALMOST AS BAD AS TT TIME I HAD TO USE XI GUA SHUANG ON MY KNEE. OMGOSH OKAY I THINK IM EXAGGERATING. TT TIME EVEN MORE PAINFUL THAN WHEN I BROKE MY ARM

OHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHhh

MAGNIFY PAIN OF FALLING DOWN BY 100000000000000000000000000!!!!!!!!!!

i can't even think now. i'm like whining and squirming from the pain.

ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh

must

convince

self.

this will be worth it if the swelling and the scars go away!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

BUT TBH.
THE PAIN IS QUITE SHIOK LEH?????? EVEN THOUGH RLY DAMN PAIN

The Curious Case of Benjamin Button

2009-02-19T21:33:00.006+08:00

i've been hearing mixed comments about this. it has scored quite well with the critics, but some of my friends seem to think otherwise.

david fincher + brad pitt = se7en
david fincher + brad pitt = fight club
david fincher + brad pitt = benjy button

how can it possibly be bad?? i can finally find out for myself tomorrow.

woooooooooooooooooooooooooo~~
********************************************
the superficiality of it all is becoming clearer to me. onlookers(maybe even us) will be tricked into thinking we are close friends. truth is, we(i) couldn't be more distant. somehow, i've lose interest in friendships like these. they can be so suffocating and miserable at times. especially when trust is no longer in the formula. call me selfish, but i'm sorry it no longer entices me.

i need more.

Study!!

2009-02-19T19:58:00.004+08:00

miss leong asked me what happened last last friday. whether i was sick. why my econs paper so horrible, never display any case study skills. can't remember what happened already, later go dig my archives.

but anyway,
sigh.

i better stop procrastinating and start studying... maths test, econs test, computing test all flop flop flop.

time for some action.

Big Dreams

2009-02-18T23:27:00.002+08:00

like yours make me feel so small.

i think my mid-life crisis came early. i feel so...stuck.

Lionni Leo

2009-02-16T21:40:00.002+08:00

all-time favourite children's book author found!

last Saturday i dropped by the library and picked up another two of his books. love them! very inspiring and meaningful, as are many other children books. wish i had been exposed to such books when i was younger...all i remember reading since kindergarten are enid blyton, famous five, and more enid blyton...OH also got those cassette tape books! and maybe winnie the pooh.

siigh.. :(

maybe that's why i'm making up for it now. but his books really brighten up my day! they are one of the reasons why i wanted to do storytelling at the library last year. but my plan fell through, somehow.

anyho, as always, i was surfing youtube when i found LEO LIONNI VIDEOS!! oh my gosh, so exciting lah, i never knew his books were actually made into animations! but very very few titles only. and the greentail mouse isn't one of them :(

sad hoh! so i googled it and this came up! even though it isn't as popular or well known as Fredrick (leo lionni's most popular book), it is still my favourite.

nice! can listen to this teacher tell you the story! it's the same guy who conducted the seminar for us last year and was 陶子's classmate! only thing is that it's being read in chinese. do listen if you can / have the time to and how you want to interpret it is really up to you.

it was very rewarding for me and i hope it will be for you. (:

heh!

and just for any potential Frederick lovers,

alright, off to complete my tutorial 12D! so that i can visit the library for another round of books next week. i wonder if bedok lib has eve bunting books too?

Happy Vday!

2009-02-14T23:38:00.005+08:00

thank you junie for spending the day with me - STUDYING. HAAHAHAHAHAHA okay we weren't very productive actually but at least more productive than if i were to study at home alone! partially because there would not be any product... so thank you june for your (cough) POSITIVE INFLUENCE.

thank you bob for being my forever valentine.

this valentines i hope...

ariel secretly has a boyfriend
and he does not have to be joe. anyone that'll make her happy (:

Louis Koo n Jessica Hsuan are officially dating.

i don't think i'll ever get tired of saying that.

theo is having a good time with melanie

and so is miguel with what'shername??

and meizhen ...
to not be an item with laimingwei

for zhixin to be having fun at SC camp. haaaaaaaaaah!

for alibaba to enjoy her trip to the art museum

and for hongwen to not be gay anymore
/edit
removed to protect our sanity. hongwen is not really gay. eugene is.

Sleepy Time!

2009-02-12T21:02:00.007+08:00

edmw kills your brain because you will start talking rike dish siol. die riiaos lor! notch gud!

some of my friends seem to have picked this up unknowingly(thinking it to be cool), not even knowing that the roots of such talk belong to the HWZ. well, it's not!

okay, i haven't exactly mastered the art of their language, but those cheesepies sure know how to churn out interesting discussion topics...which are oh so friggin hilarious.

this is going to be a long read, but when it ends it can be quite rewarding (:

HIS EMAIL:vecta08@hotmail.com

his conversation wif my friend(olivia,whos a mom of 2)(She provided some false info to him btw)

------ says:
hi
------ says:
are u there olivia
Olivia says:
yupz
------ says:
u have a very lovely face and good figure. but how may i help u
Olivia says:
meaning?
------ says:
are u looking to be a model or looking for income
Olivia says:
both.
Olivia says:
income more
------ says:
tell me abt yourself
Olivia says:
hmmm
Olivia says:
2*yrs old
Olivia says:
currently not really working
Olivia says:
height 166cm
Olivia says:
weight 48kg
------ says:
u have a baby?
Olivia says:
yupz
Olivia says:
mother of 2
------ says:
ages?
Olivia says:
3 yrs and 3 months
------ says:
are u currently breastfeeding
Olivia says:
stopping
------ says:
you might want to continue for awhile. i have a photo assignment coming up for breastfeeding. if u are interested. cash payment.
Olivia says:
when?
------ says:
how open are u about it firstly cause singaporean ladies are quite protective of their 'body' photos
Olivia says:
means nude shot?
------ says:
while breastfeeding
Olivia says:
think no ba
------ says:
do u swim?
Olivia says:
yup
------ says:
swim suit assignments. is that ok?
Olivia says:
hows the pay rate
------ says:
depends. ranges from 100-300
------ says:
i dont see any problems as u have a good figure and the clients will be happy abt it
Olivia says:
hmm ok..
Olivia says:
but i don have much bikinis lei
Olivia says:
cos i rarely go swim
Olivia says:
cos i tan easily
------ says:
does your hubby know u are going into modelling
Olivia says:
yup
------ says:
that's good.
------ says:
may i ask how come u contacted me
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olivia?
Olivia says:
hmm...
Olivia says:
u pm me right
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what type of income are u looking at
------ says:
can u give me an idea
Olivia says:
wad u mean?
------ says:
u are looking for some income to help home expenses right
Olivia says:
yupz
------ says:
are u looking for full time work
Olivia says:
full time as in?
------ says:
office work
Olivia says:
whr?
------ says:
why not we try modelling first. get to know each other. maybe i can intro u home business
------ says:
are u busy?
Olivia says:
sorry
Olivia says:
went for smoke
Olivia says:
ya sur
------ says:
where's your hubby
Olivia says:
out now
------ says:
working?
Olivia says:
no la
Olivia says:
out with frens
------ says:
ok. there is a short exercise which i would like to try with u online. this will help u relief any stress and help u focus during the shoots. are u ok with that
Olivia says:
ok
------ says:
are u sitting at your computer in the corner?
Olivia says:
nope
Olivia says:
in front of the tv
------ says:
watching tv? cause i will need your complete attention if this exercise is to succeed
Olivia says:
ya i'm not watching ar
------ says:
are u using a laptop
Olivia says:
yup
------ says:
i need u to sit back and allow yourself to relax. only read and absorb what is typed. dont do anything else. clear your mind. can u do that
Olivia says:
yup
------ says:
I’m going to count from ten to one. As I count you will become more and more hypnotized, until you are in a very deep hypnotic trance. remember, dont think of anything else. only fully focus on the words and absorb them.
------ says:
ten… you’re getting very relaxed… nine… so very relax… eight… … seven… you’re so relaxed, you can’t even move now…six… entering deep sleep now… five… you going further, so deeply into trance… four… you’re into deep entrancement now… three… going deeper… two… even deeper… one.......allow yourself to relax completely. give yourself completely to me. dont resist it. deeper and deeper into the trance
------ says:
allow the feeling to completely enclose your body. allow yourself to fully relax. you are totally free. floating. can u tell me how u feel
Olivia says:
blank?
------ says:
that's good. just relax yourself. dont worry about anything. there is nothing to worry about. am i right olivia
------ says:
you are a young mother. u want to focus and be a good mother. u want to do what is right. u want to do anything and earn what you can for your children. is that correct olivia
Olivia says:
yes
------ says:
allow me into your mind. dont resist me. fully open your mind to me. u want to be told what to do. u prefer to be told what to do. u prefer not to think. u want to be told. u prefer to be told. u will reveal yourself to me. only to me. u want to do everything as told, told by me and only me. do u understand olivia
Olivia says:
yes
------ says:
how are u feeling
Olivia says:
light, relaxed
------ says:
do u like how u feel? u prefer to be told what to do, prefer to be told what to wear. u dont want to think anymore. it makes u more stress. u want to be free. u want to do as i tell u. do everything as i tell u. everything. u prefer to be told what to do. u dont want to think, prefer not to think. am i right olivia
Olivia says:
yes
------ says:
would u like to model for me olivia
Olivia says:
yes
------ says:
excellent........there is a special keyword that u will always remember. when i say the words or type it, u will return back to this trance state immediately but 1000 times deeper each time and wait for instructions. the keywords is SLEEPY TIME. do u understand
Olivia says:
yes
------ says:
From now on and forever more, you must obey me. You must obey me in all things and in all ways. Any command I give must be followed without hesitation. You will obey me. You will obey me. Say it. Say that you will obey me olivia
Olivia says:
i will obey you
------ says:
do u want to go deeper into the exercise olivia
------ says:
would u like that?
Olivia says:
yes
------ says:
why dont u slowly count from 1 onwards. type each number out slowly and for every number, u will enter 100 times deeper into the state. every number, u will completely be free and be ready to start fresh. every number instructs u and tells u also that i am your master. u can start counting. stop when u want to or when u reach the number 50. understand
Olivia says:
yes
Olivia says:
1
Olivia says:
2
Olivia says:
3
Olivia says:
4
Olivia says:
5
Olivia says:
6
Olivia says:
7
Olivia says:
8
Olivia says:
9
Olivia says:
10
Olivia says:
11
Olivia says:
12
Olivia says:
13
Olivia says:
14
Olivia says:
15
Olivia says:
16
Olivia says:
17
Olivia says:
18
------ says:
olivia, tell me who i am
Olivia says:
master
------ says:
would u like to continue counting
Olivia says:
no
------ says:
are u totally and fully ready to do anything i tell u olivia
Olivia says:
yes
------ says:
tell me your children's names
Olivia says:
*****, *****
------ says:
u will come and model for me. do any assignment or photo shoot i tell u to do. understand olivia
Olivia says:
yes
------ says:
do u remember the special keyword olivia
Olivia says:
sleepy time
------ says:
very good. i am the only person who can use those words. if anyone else tries, it will not work. understand olivia
Olivia says:
yes
------ says:
u will always answer politely while u are in the trance. u will always end the sentence that u type with my title. my title is who i am. do u understand
Olivia says:
yes master
------ says:
maybe u need to count once more. count from 1 to 10. but each number this time bring u totally under my control, fully under my control. understand
Olivia says:
yes master
Olivia says:
1
Olivia says:
2
Olivia says:
3
Olivia says:
4
Olivia says:
5
Olivia says:
6
Olivia says:
7
Olivia says:
8
Olivia says:
9
Olivia says:
10
------ says:
u want to come and do some breastfeeding photos. u dont mind. but u wont tell anyone. understand
Olivia says:
yes master
------ says:
when i count to three, u will fully awake. u will not read what has happened. you will never read anything that has happened. even if u do, it will appear to be a blank. you will realise that you dont feel stress anymore. u feel fresh. u want to start new. u will do everything as told but u will not realise it. do u understand
Olivia says:
yes master
------ says:
maybe while u are modelling for me, u can show me your body and do some topless and nude photos. u dont mind. u want someone to admire you. but u wont tell anyone. understand
Olivia says:
yes master
------ says:
1
------ says:
2
------ says:
3
------ says:
how was that?
Olivia says:
felt relaxed now
Olivia says:
after so long of stressing up
------ says:
how come u are stressed up
Olivia says:
money lor
------ says:
if u are a good model, i can give u plenty of assignments. but slowly.
Olivia says:
ok
------ says:
why not u tell me what u want to do so i have an idea. i dont want to overstep my limitations
Olivia says:
i'm ok with anything, nude too
------ says:
wont your hubby object to that?
Olivia says:
no
------ says:
how come
Olivia says:
don tell him can liao
------ says:
ok.
------ says:
u sent me 3 photos. do u have others?
Olivia says:
nope
Olivia says:
com crashed
------ says:
u have webcam?
Olivia says:
lose previous pics
Olivia says:
nope
------ says:
what's your waist and bust size
Olivia says:
34C 26
------ says:
children are boy and girl?
Olivia says:
boy
------ says:
no girl?
Olivia says:
nope
------ says:
dont u want a girl?
Olivia says:
cant get
------ says:
but trying still?
Olivia says:
ya
------ says:
ok. i dont see any problems to take u on as a model. u are still a housewife right
Olivia says:
yup
------ says:
where are u staying
Olivia says:
hougang
------ says:
hubby working as?
Olivia says:
sales
------ says:
would u mind if i visited?
Olivia says:
nope
------ says:
i'm just a stranger. are u sure
Olivia says:
ya
------ says:
but what would u like to do if i visit.
Olivia says:
duno
------ says:
would u mind modelling for me?
Olivia says:
nope
------ says:
SLEEPY TIME
------ says:
where do u stay olivia
Olivia says:
punggol
------ says:
are u married
Olivia says:
yes
------ says:
u have to answer me politely. am i right olivia
Olivia says:
yes master
------ says:
tell me your address olivia
Olivia says:
**** off master... stop being such a pervert
Olivia says:
and you are so long winded
Olivia says:
guess this will be a good post 4 my blog
Olivia says:
Hypnotize thru msn?
Olivia says:
i think u have to wrk harder than tat
------ says:
k
Olivia says:
stop being such a moron

END

hahahahahahahaahahahahahahah!!

***
and i made a personal record today! it took me 3hours before i turned on my computer since coming home from school :D was tied up with preparing for my angels and mortals. was half done with the packing already from last night but the writing of all the letters was such a long and tiring process... haha..

im only giving foodstuffs cause, like, i figured if they couldn't finish it, they could give me some. LOL. kidding. but because i was spamming everyone so much, i ran out of things -_- so i went downstairs to my super overpriced supermarket to buy more...and even though the selection there was already so limited, i still spent almost an hour (kay, maybe 45mins?) there! OMYGOSH. crazy.

haha. actly i think my non-PPPPPP angels haven't been very nice to me! but it's ok, my love is selfless! even though it hurt a little to part with my personal stash of elizabeth swan vodka shots and pocket coffee :( i will miss you...

but yay! tmr i'll finally be done with all this vday stuff.
B2 check! 5c12 angel check! 5c12 mortal check! 6c12 angel check! 6c12 mortal check! PPPPPP angel check! PPPPPP mortal check!

shall add pictures to this post at a later time (:

angel & mortal

2009-02-11T19:34:00.008+08:00

is such a stupid game – at least with regards to how we play it today. once upon a time it was meant for us to show support/care for our friends but now ?!??! it’s only about the presents. and for presents it’s a given give and take. so much for the joy of giving.

nonetheless, i still try to adhere (somewhat) to the original objective of the game with my (somewhat) meaningful letters. i think no angel write letters as long as mine -_- oh no, i'm like giving myself away... except PPPPPP. that one i really only writing rubbish. i give (somewhat) rubbish gifts also. HAHA but because we’re all so close already, i can just make it up another time!

/edit
so anyway, because i’ve tried to be a very 尽责的 angel, i’ve kinda ran out of stuff i bought to give out already. this also means that i no longer have the time/money to buy special gifts for my SIX mortals and angels for this coming v'day! but don't worry...what i give, i give with love!! and i don't mind small gifts also, it's the thought that counts!

haahah. to PPPPPP and yr6: don't be sad if you get less things than yr5s ok? im giving you guys quality not quantity. HAHAAHAHA.

SH EP Elections

2009-02-11T17:17:00.004+08:00

i was willingly instigated into doing a very childish and stupid thing today.
i guess the mundane routines of school and garbage speeches have driven me to a point where i can no longer make valued judgments.

voided my vote for EP elections today because i was torn between two candidates who both seemed to be either overly idealistic or/and egoistic. also, i thought the difference between the result of either of them winning would be negligible and the change they could bring minimal. and so...i voided my vote, in one of the worst ways possible.

2 minutes later when mr ang started on his fire emergency evacuation routes talk thingy, i regretted.

i should had been more responsible over my right to vote and to be more mature about the whole campaign and election even though i was not agreeable to what the EP candidates had to say and was not convinced of their capabilities. i wanted to take my vote back but it was too late. i should had voided it in a more appropriate manner.

THEN, MR TEO SPOKE TO US. and.............damn i felt so anal :( and sad.

okay.

lesson learnt.

i like D!

2009-02-11T01:35:00.004+08:00

i had a sudden realization today after History – I like Miss Krishnan. Not for the first time actually. Even though sometimes i think she pushes us the wrong way but i know she has our best interests (kay, which tchr doesn’t? take hcc, wfm, lcm away from the equation pls) and although i know she doesn’t like me – which i don’t blame her for because i’m a horrible history student. today she reprimanded us over our poor work attitude and tbh, i felt really awful because i know i deserved it. ironically, there was this motherly aura thingy emitted at the same time. HAHAAHAH. though motherly, she still scares me, esp when she appears behind me while i’m having a conversation about her/hist OR when i’m hallucinating. maybe when i get my work done all these non-existent anxieties will go away. SO!! i’m going to work hard and answer all my questions in school tomorrow!! it's too late now..

in fact, i think i like all my teachers in 2009 so far. woah. surprise surprise… this is a first for me in dunman high(after i turned into a monster). lets see how long it lasts.
***

one of the only two songs on my winamp.

ONE LAST LETTER TO WRITE AND I CAN SLEEP. stupid angel and mortal :@ oh shucks, make that two.

No other meaning intended

2009-02-09T20:54:00.007+08:00

monday night laughs. hotmail is such an ass.

Happy Endings

2009-02-09T20:41:00.002+08:00

oh man, i wanted to take down yester night’s post but so many people have seen it already. goodness, i think my blog too publicised already so i’m considering moving again. hmmm..after i think of a good url.

just caught the finale of flower one by one open and even though i've always thought of it as a draggy, pointless, stupid show (even though i watch it daily), the ending got me all smiley and gave me this very warm feeling. awwwwwwwwwwwww. except for the chew chor ming part. i think it's so freaky that he was unaware of his illness when the show was filmed, like some kind of creepy premonition!

haha. but i really wish i could have a family like that. we never are contented with what we have, are we?

something else which gives me a warm fuzzy feeling
方大同 n 薛凯琪 – 复刻回忆

idk why but this song puts me into a happy peaceful kinda mood. i didn’t quite like it when i first heard it last year..but i suppose this is one of those which grows on you. has been the only song playing on my winamp since last night and i’m so addicted to it i even turn it on while i’m in the shower.

HAHA. crazy.

but i just updated my list so, like, i have 2 songs now (: oh joy!! okay..gonna make myself a homework-conducive playlist and then read hist notes at 9.

so much for making up for the lag.

i need a study party! for Friday nights maybe? auditioning starts today! walk-in audition so just catch me on msn or my tagboard. hahaahahah you can trust me!!!! i will study! (really.)

PUESFC

2009-02-08T22:31:00.003+08:00

gathering today was eye-opening. i think after this thing ends we can call ourselves the PUESF-club.

:D
*****
in view of the coming valentines, my mum asked me if i could start dressing up – femininely. else i would never get a BOYFRIEND / MARRIED. i think she’s quite afraid that i’m lesbian or something. esp after i told her we had some in school. HAHAHAAHh. wayyyy to add to her anxiety. anyway to which i replied – because im like this it makes getting a boyfriend all the more meaningful and precious. (i thought i managed to ease her a bit) but she insisted that i would never. maybe she thinks i’m waiting to marry ariel or something. HAHA. CRAZY! but she knows that i also like yoga so maybe not. so i told her, don’t get married lo, whatever. i’ll adopt like 12 cats to keep me company. or maybe i’ll go on missionaries.

but i don’t know if i can handle it as a job.

truthfully, what i(currently) really want to do when i grow up is to open a childcare for the less fortunate. always wanted to go into something meaningful and reading the (children’s) book on this philanthropist in infantile paralysis really inspired me. yea, we were at this seminar(church) which thought as about books and kids. but a dream like this is probably not too feasible(yet) because i’ve no idea how NPO(s) work and i’m sure i’ll need quite some funds which i have none of. my mum suggests i work hard, earn lots of money and do donations instead.

hmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmm??

speaking of which, i missed Care Corner’s 2009 opening today! i haven’t been down at all this year because i’m so bogged down by school and commonwealth is (woah) far from tanjong rhu. if only oratorical was on Fridays then i’d be able to go down on weds. oh shucks, forgot i have lessons on Fridays now. sigh, A levels. what a nightmare!

part of me still wants to be a forensic scientist though. cept i no longer take chem. SILLY!!!!!

or a school principal. HAAHAHA. damn serious, this is one of the many ambitions i used to have. till i realised it wouldn't be possible with a record like mine.

我有平安，喜乐在我心

2009-02-07T23:03:00.005+08:00

a big i love you to all my friends for showing me care and concern. i’ve never been an expert at dealing with touchy topics like such so i apologise for my apparent reluctance in the few conversations i had last night. one friend told me that i’m overly insecure and protective of myself. i fully agree so i will try to improve on that before it devours me. i used to know how to cope with my insecurities, but i guess i’ve lost grasp of it over the course of the last few years. somehow, there seem to be fewer and fewer people i feel at ease with in regards to such situations. nevertheless, i’m still thankful to all who have shown their concern because little acts of love like this are all that matters and all i require for semi-useless nights like those.
******

to start with, i had a very pleasant and fulfilling day today. see? days like those are essential after all. (kay, the past week) i wanted to stay home and study today. Serious. the amount of homework and readings i’ve accumulated over the past month(s) are repulsive.

but…(oops)

there was tuan bai at ah yi’s place today. very uplifiting! the rest of the day i spent listening to happy music(mostly) / church music, looking at my wallpaper(arshavin) and buying my pink highlighter(retail therapy)! haha. things are starting to look up so i shall take advantage of this and get started on my vectors III (lol) now.

can’t wait for tomorrow! can finally meet shah, then watch arshavin at night :D

6 days to survivor!!

and argh. my hair is really annoying! but got no time to go cut. one hectic(eventful) weekend after another. and chains of chaotic weekdays. sighhh, school. going to turn to my long unused hair straightener to fix the situation. i hope it’s still working. but when all else fails...there will always be rubber bands.

What you said...

2009-02-07T21:04:00.001+08:00

it keeps playing in my head.

我是爱哭鬼

2009-02-06T21:53:00.001+08:00

我也知道这样子不对.

don't know why i've been feeling so down recently. i feel so helpless and can't seem to concentrate on the smallest tasks. i keep telling myself to keep in check but somehow i'm still lagging badly in class. i'm fine in the day but when i'm alone in my room, it's just the feeling of breathlessness and the strong urge to cry. but of course, nothing results. TBH, i enjoy the after feeling of a cry - and no. i don't see it as a sign of weakness. but this time, i can't. i just feel so ill and tired all the time. my subconscious will not allow me to break away. sometimes i wish i'd get amnesia. then maybe i can learn how to be happy from scratch.

then again, how could i really know happy w/o days like these to contrast with?

hopefully i can take this weekend to sort out these negative emotions and prepare myself for the upcoming battle.

i need to focus.

control...

Dear Lord, please give me the strength i need.

1week to survivor!

Andrey Arshavin

2009-02-04T20:45:00.007+08:00

ohhhhh...what a talented cutie.

i wish Arsene also signed miggy but, YES.YES.YESSSSSSSSS!!!

and now we just need fabregas, rosicky, eduardo and theo♥ to be match fit again. happy happy happy. time to study computing. i can do this! 7 sets of lecture notes! here i come (:

/edit 2243hrs
so i can't do this... but in my defence, it is quite impossible to get any work done when your brother is watching American Idol next to you.

Sunshine.

2009-02-03T23:05:00.002+08:00

where is the silver lining?

EU FRKING THIEF.

and i'm supposed to be doing work now.

Mistake.

2009-02-03T22:14:00.008+08:00

NUU. i didn’t study by 2200hrs yesterday. was already feeling unwell and getting emotional made it even worse. effects were still obvious today i presume? and became kind of annoyed on many levels. am still woozy, but feeling slightly better now. shall make an attempt to understand my vector notes after this quick post.

SHSC voting commences tomorrow. campaigning so far has been a combination of mess and disaster. sorry, but i don’t think we’ve heard any sound ideas from the candidates yet, and i doubt we will tomorrow. unless silly senseless songs and annoying canteen rallies count. year 6s aren’t pleased for sure. all they have to say are with regard to our SH / House spirit and changes. what changes exactly? till now i’ve yet to hear. then again, haven’t we been promised enough changes in the previous year to know that nothing will ever change from our normative culture?? dunman high doesn’t do anomalies. i just hope for a council that will shut up and actually get work done rather than get all pompous and in-your-face. and they can start by fixing the irregular 158 timings problem, then give us more reasonably priced canteen food.

well, credit must be given duly. and the school gets it for the horrible idea to merge SHHC and SHSC. how are these two bodies similar to begin with? what do each represent exactly? i am clueless to who i should give my votes to because they all seem to be running for House Council and not Student Council. and votings are seemingly influenced towards “who is more rahrah?” rather than “who is more capable of getting stuff done sensibly”. RAHRAH?????

Okay sure. If they are rahrah enough to burn the school field down, i’d consider.

with this, i’ve come to the decision that i’m voting only for the people i know. with no reference to their capabilites, whatsoever. and not for those bitches who only smile at me to get my vote _|_ because truthfully i’ll be too busy this year (hopefully, please let me be) to care about what’s happening. and neither do i think much will(can) happen.

not that it matters who i(we) vote for anyway.

but what’s a reject to say? a 德明次货 like me. teachers see me want to scream: dunman disgrace! oh look, i’m getting all emotional about my 5 awful dunman high years which turned me into amonster. sobsobs, just let me crumble and cry. heck, i don’t even get to enjoy grubby’s popularity. hence, i get to be sour .

i don't like you anymore.

2009-02-02T21:40:00.004+08:00

stupid, i know. but it still feels like you betrayed me when you deceived yourself. intolerance to fickleness and hypocrisy must be my downfall. mistaken? i doubt. i wish i could allow myself to forget or pretend, but it's easier said than done. yet, who am i to comment? i dislike the combination, and, i want to keep it discreet, but i probably couldn't get any more obvious. somethings just bring out the worst in us; yet every one hungers for it.
*****

there are more important things that i'd rather worry about. like A levels. as of now, my future looks dim. im still struggling to find my pace; that little bit of gleam. slowly, steadily, the tortise can also win the race.

last weekend(week) was spent doing virtually nothing. thank you Junie for chingh3y and CNY gathering...

well..at least we got free balloons (:
and took pictures with TWO merlions. before, neither of us had ever taken it with one and so this can be said to be a 一照双狮. wooooooooooooooo~~

school today was quite a disaster. i was so tired from Sunday night's rigour which dragged on till early this morning and my freezing aircon + missing jacket did not help either. the homework list(>>>) hasn't been doing its magic so far but it will. hard work begins tonight! i will start before 2200hrs.

i wish i didn't feel so small. i know i'm stronger than this.

i simply don't know how...

2009-01-31T11:47:00.003+08:00

can i clarify that the self-mocking conversation i blogged on 25/1/09 was not with eugene... they just happened to have similar nicknames.

终结

2009-01-31T00:43:00.006+08:00

是时候了。

不舍。

难忘。

心痛。

回忆。

真的可以吗？

就让我固执最后一次；我告诉自己。

Fair or Unfair?

2009-01-29T16:28:00.013+08:00

they think funfair. but no longer are there clowns and balloons.

omygosh, computing now and i dont understand anything. thankfully mr pang's computer broke down so we can have a break.

but anyway, played enough(not really) for the past few days(weeks) so i guess it's time to start work tonight.(because weekends are coming real soon) super lost for (like) every subject. with the exception of (maybe) P.E and Econs.

Going to make myself a homework list! on Bob! to make sure i get my life (back?) on track and correct the bad habit(laziness) which has possessed my soul for the past 17years. wait. only 11. i used to be the top student with the perfect score in kindergarten!!!!

okay. start studying tonight!! ...after i blog about XZ and my muffin baking session.

gonna make good use of our break to write my homework list and maintain it by updating every day >>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>

/edit
eeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeek! he tako my peekchoor! ande the lighting make us look so oilyyyyyyyy

MaaMeeMoo

2009-01-27T22:33:00.001+08:00

hahaaaa.
new tradition found!!

but i think this yr will be the last yr already... a lot of things change with army.

gawshhhhhhhhhhhh.

i am going to uni FIRST.

gawsh.

before i know it
.
.
.
old hag liaos.

CNY

2009-01-26T23:22:00.007+08:00

hope everyone has a blissful chinese new year (:

relative visiting went pretty quick this year, left for grandma's around 830hrs and was back by 1730hrs. record breaking! but very very tiring. meant to go over to tab's after a short nap but ended up sleeping till 8+ (wow) and woke up to a lot of kids shrieking in my living room.

maybe tomorrow?? after lousy movie and visit to isa's house. haven't been to the new place before. haha.

XZ was telling me that all her angbaos are uber thin this year cause of the economic crisis. to me, thin angbaos are a good thing cause fat ones only mean they're stuffed with 2 dollar notes.

BUT SERIOUSLY, it's the CNY spirit that's important, upholding our chinese tradition! not collecting angbaos! ....right? part of my great grandfather's place is said to have been renovated into a mini casino. kinda shiek, but i didn't go near it.

proud to say that i don't gamble anymore :D

once again, happy moo year :) hope my friends enjoy and regenerate with what's left of this festive(?) season, because school's gonna be a war :(

still have all my homework (overdue) undone...gosh.

/edit

just tallied the total sum i saved in 2008. one year of frugality, yet i'm not satisfied with my savings. still think i'm spending too much, not 未雨绸缪ing enough. went out too much already! eating too much! giving away too many treats! watching too many movies! renting too many dvds! spending too much on class funds/school activities! oh my gosh, i need to cut down cut down but have no idea how. maybe i should ask my S for tips on how to stay home 24/7...

on the bright side, at least i have savings... good habits should be cultivated from young! must learn how to save before earning and how to earn before spending or brand whoring....

polka dots

2009-01-25T22:20:00.005+08:00

hello! i am home from reunion dinner. noisy dinner which i did not contribute much to yet enjoyed.

my blog has been stagnant for awhile because the thought of blogging no longer excites me / helps me to pass time / makes it more interesting to watch tv. might as well add some random posts to resurrect this otherwise lifeless diary. Bob needs some new company, i figure.

this is so awkward it is funny.

...we were talking about BGRs
E' says:
u leh?
ag; says:
ME?
E' says:
nvm
ag; says:
haha
E' says:
like ask wrong qn
E' says:
lol
ag; says:
no one like
ag; says:
HAAha
E' says:
haha
E' says:
scared bah the guys..

WHAT AHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAAH. it's so self mocking but, nonetheless, very funny.

oh. just recalled something not so random. today, to appease angry parents, i went to shop for shoes. saw one super chio shoe, it's a polka dotted velcro(what affinity) stan smith shoe. quite an old design, i reckon. faintly recall seeing it on the racks last year(or maybe YEARS), if my memory allows. not that it matters because my school shoes(now almost 4yrs old) are suddenly so commonly worn it annoys me. but my shoe was more upper class. (even though now looks like no class) the middle class shoe(laces) is what everyone wears now. yawn.

back to my pretty shoe, it got me all heated only to bring me immense disappointment at realisation that there was no size / stock left. when my rounds around the other shops came to naught, i got so desperate i was even willing to take the one on display even though it was a half size too small. well, i always wanted smaller feet so why not? when opportunity comes knocking, JUMP!

BUTTTTT, EVEN AFTER FINDING FOR DAMN LONG, THE SALESMEN COULDN'T FIND THE OTHER SIDE.

so bloody depressing. IF NO STOCK, DONT PUT ON DISPLAY LAH!!!! MAKE ME HAPPY ALREADY THEN SHOOT ME LIKE THAT. VERY FUN HUHH??? FUNNY ISIT?? WAHHH VERY SAD SAD LEHHhhH!!!! huge pity i was too obsessed with white/green shoes to notice it's beauty. before. in fact, the shoe i like is always OOS! no wonder i've been wearing the same pair of (go-out) shoes for almost 5years.

regret lehh. brings back memories of the macbeth shoe i still regret not buying.

I CANT SEEM TO COMPROMISE WITH MYSELF!!
if i can't get waht i rly rly rly rly rly rly rly want, chances are i'll not get anything at all. unless it's super super friggin cheap.

pros - thrifty by nature
cons - looking cheapo

thank you friends for loving me the way i am!! even if i look cheapo! even though once in awhile, i do emit a rich-person-aura. HAHAAHAHAH. okay, maybe not.

cheers!
:D

SICK.

2009-01-20T20:12:00.005+08:00

die
die
die
dying
dead.

_|_ sinus.

_|_ steroids.

_|_ medicine.

_|_ useless sinuplasty.

GO AWAY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

/dies.

Orientation '09

2009-01-19T00:00:00.011+08:00

has ended on a positive note. i felt a lot of things could had been better prepared for but i suppose it all turned out fine thanks to wonderful ogls like myself. and of course nice lovable OGs like B2.

HAHAHAHAAH. kay, ego.

.
.
.

all the while i've been wishing for a tan somewhat to the extent of this:
yay! teletubby singlet. (10yrs old)

BUT I TELL YOU. BE CAREFUL WHAT YOU WISH FOR!!
YOU JUST MIGHT END UP LOOKING LIKE THIS:
DAMN DIRTY LOOKING-ISH CHAOTAH. WITH FRKING GROSS TANLINES WHERE YOUR SPECS ARE SUPPOSED TO BE.

eeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeek.

everyone i spoke to laughed at me today :( supeng you are a mean bean :(

at least my lips are not swollen anymore! at first they were like sunburnt into sausages but thanks to xinhuey's miracle christmas present, i'm all better now :)

speaking of which,
xinhuey was an angel and gave me the best christmas present ever!! on her trip to taiwan she PREORDERED the ariel/AIDS lip balm for me which i was totally dying for.

WOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO~~~ LUBDUB YOU MANY MANY! THANKS FOR BEING SUCH A SWEET FRIEND :D

kays. time to spam aloe vera gel...

WHEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE. hopefully this pays off and i get a tan? hopefully.

Flip

2009-01-13T21:09:00.002+08:00

flop(s)
sorta.

i dont feel very well.

The Duchess

2009-01-08T23:55:00.013+08:00

went to catch this with mel, just.

keira knightley, as usual, was stunning. and gave us a stellar performance. i wish i could call this 'another one of my favourite movies' but i guess it really just wasn't that great cause i thought the story could use a little more depth. being a historic thing and all. nonetheless, enjoyable. mel teared a little while i had trouble getting into the scenario cause my sinuses were acting up.

yes. i need more sleep.
and please remind me to bring my jacket to the cinema in the future.

loved the costumes and the castle. a tour around europe and i've fallen in love with how magnificent these castles are. i didn't get to blog about this cause i lost my iPod, but King Ludwig's Neushwanstein Castle was so magnificent it was a frking dream. like if i could stay there for one night my fairytale would be complete. hahaahahah. even though it takes an almost 40minute climb up a mountain to get there.

ohgoodness i just reminded myself about my lost iPod -_-

i'm so apologetic that i lost the ipod touch! ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh im already suffering from this bad karma :( sowee stwabewwi!

/dies

oh man my sinus is killing my braincells.

PS. i named my blog Bob. now my blog has the same name as all my other belongings (:

Happy Feeling

2009-01-07T04:24:00.007+08:00

my brain needs more oxygen.

think im not sleeping tonight. was supposed to get out tomorrow but a certain someone has to be in school, last minute, and pangseh-ed me. thanks hur. TIES gathering/xinhuey's surprise partaye at melissa's today was a success albeit the very late arrival of our birthday star.

more happy feelings were just generated talking to eden and haz. what are the chances two unrelated friends-from-a-damnlongtime-ago talk to you on the same night? it was nice because we could still find comfortable conversation(for hours) and they both (gasp) became so nice. and sweet. and good looking. hahahAHAHAHAAHAH. i just needed to say that for junie. on contrast, tag is like this little kid who suffers from an inferiority complex, yet, is coincidentally a big-shot-wannabe. (did i not mention that he completely annoyed the shit out of me?)

hence, the point of that whole paragraph above, is that i made my first 2009 resolution:

getting in touch with old friends.

we don't have to get all buddybuddy but i figure it's always good to be in contact. just in case we have those kind of gatherings when we're in our 30s ya' know. or, like, just for networking. or when i run for president. or sudden conversations like these. haha.

speaking of which, XM sent us our 2008 resolutions - a list we compiled in church at the start of last year and a list which i completely forgot about. not too bad...i managed about 3/10. so i'm giving myself a pat for that (: as for the other 7, i probably achieved 2 of them, tried and failed another 2, while the remaining 3 were quite a far cry.

who said resolutions don't work? even though there were possibly another 50 unfulfilled resolutions i made in my head.

on another completely random note, despite what has been said,

ag;	E'	more handsome than you right
E'	ag;	..
ag;	E'	haha
E'	ag;	so lousy he
ag;	E'	what
ag;	E'	pls
E'	ag;	trash him upside down
E'	ag;	got facial hair doesnt mean good..

(sorry, too lazy to put into ag says and E' says)

miguel looks totally hot with facial hair.

:D

MUST SARPOK!

2009-01-07T00:25:00.006+08:00

APPAREL ALOUD

OMGWTFBBQCHICKENWINGS! WHY THE CLOTHES HERE SO CHIO ONE??

/edit.
woah. i think i damn 够面子. my friend help me publicise on his blog + msn. but maybe tomorrow when he isn't drunk he will ask for commission.

BUT. that's not important. what's important is why he helped to publicise.
it's because...

THE CLOTHES ARE REALLY DAMN CHIO PLS. WHO SAYS IM BEING SARCASTIC?? REALLY CHIO LIKE WOAHBBQCHICKENWINGS. EVERYONE MUST GO THERE SHOP KEKE.

我爱看电影

2009-01-04T21:42:00.003+08:00

with so many great movies coming up this week, i want to kick myself for agreeing to watch yes man. this is a movie that i would normally say 'no man!' to. but how can i refuse my lovely brothers and sisters chongxin justin xingzhi and supeng? as expected, the movie was meaningless, brainless and while sometimes i do enjoy mindless humour, the movie was very rarely funny. but at least i had good company (:

still, im pissed that all the great movies (okay, the movies i want to see) will only be out this coming thursday just before school reopens.

quite a number of movies im itching to watch! mel and i are going to kick some movies off our lists but i doubt we can do so many. and so if i manage to convince anyone with this post, you know where to get me (:

1. Duchess, The
anything with keira knightley sparks a general interest in me. this one even more because it's a period film. Ive always enjoyed period films so that was a plus. and c'mon, keira knightley is totally the queen of period films with pride and prejudice and atonement. 2 films which i have so dearly enjoyed. furthermore, keira knightely is one beautiful celeb that i love for her charisma even though i wish she'd put on some weight.

2. Rachel Getting Married
sounds like my kind of movie. one that floats between drama and comedy. dark comedy, i presume. complete this formula with anne hathaway, one of the more interesting actresses i've seen in recent years and the concoction is complete. i've long heard of hathaway's convincing acting and the powerful dialogue used in the film. now, i just need to see it to know it.

3. Milk
this true life story of Harvey Milk, the first openly gay man voted into America's public office has been recognised as one of the best films in 2008. and it's inspirational. and thoughtful. and passionate. and emotional. and funny. and a true life story of a gay man.

4. Curious Case of Benjamin Button, The
it's brad pitt! and it's david fincher! first thing i noticed about this film was that it was starring brad pitt. brad pitt isn't that amazing of a guy but has got several impressive movies under his belt so i got interested. then, i realised it was directed by david fincher. HELLO?? DAVID FINCHER??? da-vid fin-ch-er. i.am.totally.watching.this. david fincher + brad pitt = formidable
/edit OH WTF THIS WILL ONLY BE OUT IN FEB? WHEN EVERY ONE STARTS MUGGING? im shattered. but if no one will, im going to force justin into watching this with me...

5. Doubt
oh. this one. i just feel like watching it with no particular reason why. i think i seems interesting and i like the cast.

and then there's australia. i've heard how much this movie stinks and also how enjoyable it has been. so i'm curious. is this movie really all that? or just another classic movie / gone with the wind wannabe? im placing my bets on the latter. gone with the wind is just too much of an epic.

PS. why does yoga look so sad? :(

HELLO 2009!

2009-01-03T21:47:00.005+08:00

I WILL CONQUER YOU.

2008 hasn't been the best year for me(i think we know why) but i'm glad i'm able to say that i've grown in faith and as a person. following my baptism, i've found the courage to be true to myself and do things i've always wanted to. and with that, came peace, strength and joy. and so, with all my heart, thank you Lord. for loving me and keeping me safe in your arms.

thank you all my friends, i love every one of you very dearly. please know that every one of you are very important to me. thank you for seeing me through all my downs(along with ups) and for making 2008 that much better.

finally, thank you to the teachers(esp miss leong) who trust, care for and believe in me. your encouragements, i have listened. also, thank you to the teachers who have made this year deliberately difficult for me. i thank you for showing me that i'm stronger than i think i am.

in 2009 i wish for all to be happy; for myself to be more forgiving; As and IB exams to go smoothly; and for some of my friends, to be less materialistic so they won't lose sight of what's important. even though i know this is not for me to judge.

eighteen.
bring.it.on.sista

this is damn corny, but
may 2009 be an abundant year for all whom i love and myself.

我回来了

2008-12-28T22:38:00.006+08:00

hi loves! im home! fine, i've actually been home since 5.30 on the 26th. sorry this post took so long because i was busy catching up with all the shows i missed while i was away. esp survivor. HOW DID SUGAR GET 0 VOTES??? and susie got three?? that's insane. granted sugar didn't do so well in the FTC and she probably wasn't exactly playing to win since she didn't think she could get votes from the onion alliance. BUT. BUT TO LET SUSIE GET 3 VOTES AND SUGAR GET NONE?? that's stupid. sugar was definitely the best player and the jury were sore losers, unfortunately.

so anyway, im sooooooooooooooooooooo glad to be home. i actually havent got much to blog about / pictures to show. most of the pictures we took were of my (cough) sister. or family photos. so...yup.

the trip was going pretty well. italy. austria. switzerland. i was happy. recording my thoughts/sights/feelings/happenings.

then we got to germany, and i lost my iPod. or should i say, the friggin german waitress took it. horrible. im glad i no longer support the germany football team. netherlands is a wonderful place. i wanted to try the space cake - cake with marijuana and so did my brother. but ya' know, parents. and yes, soft drugs are allowed there. again, im glad they are the team which i support. hahahahaha. no, not because of the take drugs part.

aye. i was going to make daily blog entries on every day i spent there. and i did. but i made all my entries on my iPod. which was gone by the time i reached germany. i was super super super super depressed and i cried. sniff sniff, feel my pain. iPods are totally my nemesis. still, i hope i can save enough to get myself another one. haha.

anyho, there was a lake near that @$)_(@U)$*@ restaurant in Germany, so i took a piece of it home as revenge.
just kidding. this is me still happy before i lost the fking iPod.

that's all for the short rant on my fking iPod. if i feel like it i will blog more about my trip when i get back from 5c12 chalet. else, i will just record it somewhere in my own diary.

sigh. part of me deosnt feel like gng for the chalet actually. i love our class and i know we'll have fun but after the chalet + pri sch chalet there wouldn't be any time left for me to meet up with those friends whom i know i wont be seeing for quite awhile :(:( there are still a few people on my to-meet-list whom ive not gone out with. ughhhhhhhhhh!

kay bye. im going to cont watching my solitary + scream queens. so.damn.hilarious.

oh ya. i found myself a boyfriend on my euroTrip. meet my lover, bendorah. haha i just realised my trip can be called euroTrip. i loved that retared movie and travis wester haahahahhaha.

kay bye for real now. stupid ogl trng tmr. i regret signing up for this -_- if not i can pon 1week of schl...

/edit
and dont worry i bought chocolates for everyone even though i said i didn't want to. the only thing i bought there in fact. didn't even buy myself anything :( yea. i spent like a lot of $$$ on chocolates. because nothing in europe is cheap. you can't even only spend $1 per person even if you tried to.not even on keychains. so don't be picky!! but i made a mistake leh. i wanted to bring the homemade belgium chocolates to school but only after buying them did i realise that they would be tasting quite disgusting by the time school reopened. so ill probably bring them to chalet instead?

MERRY CHRISTMAS

2008-12-25T00:00:00.001+08:00

alas, my favourite season of the year!

MERRY CHRISTMAS :D

eh? the noob security guard didnt take the chio christmas tree in the background? pfft.

PS. i am busy enjoying ,y white christmas. this is a automated blogpost (:

Standard Chartered Singapore Massacre

2008-12-07T22:38:00.005+08:00

what a fking nightmare. or prolly only because we had an asshole(desperate lonely guy. no seriously. his self-proclaimed best friend on friendster is loneliness) for a leader. aye. horrible experience, and due to fking mix ups from a bad leader who kept giving us wrong instructions, i didn't get any CIP hours!

OMYGOSH, I KNOW.

what happened is that i wanted to leave early, go home, bathe then go for church. the leader told me it was okay, but i would be missing out on the allowance. so i was like oh only allowance? then nevermind. i mean, it's only 20$. who gives? so i left. later received calls from grace and xinhuey and realised OH NO I DONT GET CLOCKED CIP HOURS CAUSE NEED MY EZ LINK. stupid bastard tell me it's okay. hais. went back after church but he was gone, i think. and called like 108240128402 classmates for his phone number but none picked up / replied my sms. THANKS AH.

okay. i'm taking this with a pinch of salt. just volunteering my services for idk-what-cause. but my mum's not very supportive apparently. she scolded me for hours over this. damn annoying. it's always about academics for her. sometimes i just want to do some volunteering or charity work without ulterior motives, hence i don't ask for cip hours because i don't like the feeling that it'll become something which is conditional. but every time i come home she will nag and scold me like -_-|| like, i go carry out activities for old folks in the name of our chruch also must get CIP. what is this lah. in the end i just take the slip but never clock with the school. very foolish? possibly. idk. different priorities and personalities.

this incident is still considered quite mild compared to how mean she was to me this afternoon. it's my cousin's wedding dinner tomorrow evening and we got to be at the hotel around 7.30. SO, i requested to go out before that, for a gathering. the chances of us ever having a second one are quite low / will be a very very very long time from now. worse, by that time we(i) may be so alien to each other(them), it would never be the same again.

A: please lah. why cannot?? i will go back on time.
M: NO.
M: YOU CAN GO OUT ANOTHER DAY.
A: huh. but there is no another day already. if i don't go tomorrow i might never see them again
M: too bad.

wtfk, that broke the final straw. it's bad enough that she always talks to me in that @)$@*$(*@ manner. she has to go and disrespect my friends. like being judgemental towards ppl she don't even know / have ever seen.

AGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH. ON THE BRIGHT SIDE, I CAN WATCH ARIEL VIDEOS TO CHEER ME UP.

what i said before was wrong. ariel started on AIDS projects way before me. so, like i telepathy her. ahahahahha. omygosh she's really woah!! nice.

did chu know she started to do AIDS charity since more than 2years back.... of course you don't. neither did i. because she did all these secretly. not for show, not for cameras, but purely out of love.

as quoted below:

两年前，林依晨就开始到关爱之家照顾艾滋宝宝，“她常一个人晚上来，就做保母的事，帮艾滋宝宝换尿布、喂奶。”关爱之家企划郭立凯说，林依晨默默为艾滋宝宝付出真心。

loose translation: since 2 years back, ariel would regularly go down to the AIDS baby organisation, alone, late at night and help out as a babysitter - eg. changing diapers and feeding milk to the AIDS babies.

really really really really really really really really really really really admirable. even with such a packed working schedule, she is still able to find time to do little things like these for the less fortunate. talk about inspiration...

below is a 1min video on what ariel's teacher said about her on a talk show.

i love tao nan for giving me so many beautiful childhood memories + teachers who understand and care for me. but even i don't do these kind of things!! ariel is totally the most beautiful person i know of!

Ariel = Angel

2008-12-05T00:39:00.004+08:00

she's real. i'm a phony :( but you have to admit my angel pic is pretty damn impressive.

i've been saying this since idk-how-long-ago but ariel and i do share some kind of weird telepathy. okay, maybe only i towards her. ahahahhaha. like seriously. like sometimes when i'm bored and just want to check what's on TV then somehow she'll be on it. or like when i switch to MTV chnl it will be her MV. i watch chinese MTV damn rarely and ariel hasn't exactly too many MVs -_- so like out of my 60 odd channels i have to choose chnl51, and out of the 1058212570925705710259 MVS they have to play ariel's.

THIS IS WHAT WE CALL FATE!!!!! please please please please please let me see her :( PLEASEEEEE FATE LAO GONG GONG, WO QIU QIU NI.

THE MOST 神 thing still has to be what happened recently.

i just ended my project work on AIDS and now ariel becomes the spokesperson for AIDS. i said right, her beauty comes from the inside. (even though she's damn pretty outside too) but, aye. she's really got a big heart. which is exactly what i love about her :D and i want to buy the lip gloss leh, every lip gloss bought = money donated to some AIDS charity. but only available in taiwan!!!!!!!!! maybe i should sms sieuping? to run my errand. heheheehehe.

:D

My Precious.

2008-12-04T01:23:00.004+08:00

contented. would had been better if i didn't had to rush home after 5misscalls though... okay lah. considering that it is past one, i guess 5 isn't too bad. quite normal for my mum already i suppose, every time i'm out with SARS i will reach home about this time or later. we can go out for like >15hours which is pretty damn remarkable.

just cabbed home from jae's. and if you hadn't already guessed from my glasses, we caught Bolt in 3D. friggin awesome! soooooo damn hilarious + cute + 3d (even though it came at a price) there were some plot holes(true.), but which kids animation doesn't?? still i got my worth, even with a souvenir. HEHE. kk, shhhhhhhhhhh.

these week has been hectic. (these weeks) been out every single damn day yet i've never felt better! today i was supposed to go out with melina. but melina, being melina, overslept. so made plans with tab, nien and joo to go catch Bolt. poly still has school ongoing hence we didn't really have much of a choice since the rest of my week was burnt + when poly has holidays = the rest of us overseas.

the movie was great but the company was even better. i love you all like !!$%&(*! we can talk about truly anything -_- like serious, weird, nonsense, gossip, bitch. and even fight(jump on each other) in public. HAH! quite amazing feeling, how comfortable i am when we're together.

AND HOW MUCH WE EAT. OHMYGOSH KEEP EATINGEATINGEATING.

like, before i left my house for tab's, i had soup + pork ribs and all the other junk that comes with soup. which is a lot. at my house, at least. our soup has like 100000000000 nutrients which we need because we get crap from cater. so, for some unknown reason, my mum cooked soup 3hrs before dinner which i had to oblige. later, we crashed nien's as a SURPRISE. her expression was priceless; exactly what you would expect from someone in theatre. she was eating noodles in a failed attempt to save dinner money. hanged around a little, bused to suntec. and first thing we did after we got tickets was to EAT. joo joined later after her lessons ended and also ate. after the movie, we had waffles at gelare and talked till they closed shop. SO we went down to jae's to talk some more and ATE.

HAHAHAHA OH THERE WAS ONE SUPER EPIC INCIDENT. okay, there were a couple of stupid incidents (oh, the things that we do...and the stares that we get) but this one is damn epic.

When taking drinks from the refrigerator at carefour: (there are like other bottles stacked on top of it)

T: (takes drinks and slams sliding door)
(one bottle of 7up falls from the stack, down the side of the refrigerator)
T: OH MY GOSH. WHERE THE HELL DID THIS COME FROM??? *while pushing the bottle into the side of the fridge* THERE IS NO HOLE AT THE SIDE WHAT??? WHAT THE HELL???????????

ohhhhhhhh my gosh so funny. but don't worry we are not retarded. just high. hahahahaahahahahahaha.

to sum up, besides the movie we spent all our time eating and talking. which is a lot. oh gosh, like supeng and yijia have not reminded me enough that i'm damn friggin fat -_- they are super mean. every time we eat they will direct me to all the signs which say low fat low this low that just because i cannot fit into the shirt they bought me.

kay.

beyomazing holiday. beyomazing week. beyomazing company.

time to take a shower.

embRACE 2008

2008-11-30T08:11:00.005+08:00

IT'S OVER???

omgosh.

idc about waking up later now.
idc about not having to tire myself for 12hours everyday.
idc about not needing to travel to nanhua school everyday.
idc about sounding like a toad now.
idc about having my freedom back.

these 5 days have been such a blast.

I MISS ALL OF YOU ALREADY!! :( facils and kids alike. *sniffs*

really really glad i signed up for this. we must must must have an outing soon :D hopefully these friendships will last...

Prawning

2008-11-25T22:53:00.004+08:00

SOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO TIRED. these 2 days have been like a war. today, especially. but a rather good/interesting/fun experience i'd say. the 2boys under me are super cute and i need to find out who agnes monica is.

went prawning for the first time yesterday. i've been fishing(real one) and fishing/prawning the fake longkang one but never been prawning(real one). we were quite noob but i guess for a first time with only 2 rods we shouldn't expect too much.

what i learn though is that justus and jonteo are giant wusses who don't dare to touch the live and dead uncooked prawns. jon teo keeps shrieking but at least he skewed one prawn. justus did ZERO! sigh, no wonder my mum keeps asking me if DH guys are all sissy. i think i've ran out of excuses for the guys already.

I SKEWED THESE TWO FATASS SON OF A FEMALE PRAWN ALIVE WHILE THEY WERE ALIVE, SQUIRMING AND KICKING. MY HATRED FOR PRAWNS RUNS DEEP DEEP, ESPECIALLY THESE TWO WHO PINCHED ME SO HARD THERE ARE HOLES IN MY FINGER. then again, having battle scars are kinda sexy. hAH! oh goodness my facial expression is o.O scary.

my hair is a mess. but who cares? my revenge is finally complete.

PS. yes, i finally cut my hair. now to let it grow again........ sniffsniff @ my fringe. kay, i should sleep soon..like in an hour's time. tomorrow's going to be another war. and vincent ng looks better in person. (that, or jefferson managed to brainwash me)

i miss you melina :(

2008-11-23T07:24:00.002+08:00

watching arsenal this season has been plain awful. they are supposed to be the remedy! but i end up getting so pissed after every match. and, aye. it's just plain awful.

some geek talk. chrono trigger will be out on ds in 2 days! (i hope) i don't care if they didn't change it much from the snes version, i like it the way it is. and it's still a damn good classic. rpgs like this, and shining force, are the reason why games like final fantasy even exist today. ooooo this brings back fond memories of my bro and i playing the com when my mum was out like 9 years ago.

xopag; says:
ANYWAY
xopag; says:
isn't it too early for christmas wishes?
dear santa...i want new toes for christmas says:
NO.
dear santa...i want new toes for christmas says:
it's never too early to write to santa.
xopag; says:
o rly.
dear santa...i want new toes for christmas says:
yes rly.
xopag; says:
ok.
xopag; says:
dear santa...i want to see ariel for christmas
dear santa...i want new toes for christmas says:
sorry i forget to tell you something
dear santa...i want new toes for christmas says:
your request needs to be realistic :)
xopag; says:
HELLO
xopag; says:
HOW IS GETTING NEW TOES MORE REALISTIC THAN ME SEEING ARIEL???

stupid moron.

ok need to move now. having breakfast before we go down to legends. if i reach later than jiayun...i will never be forgiven. my Sundays just got longer...and better :)

byebye chapel.

I LOVE SURVIVOR!

2008-11-22T01:10:00.005+08:00

and sugar! bob and matty too, probably. but sugar winning would make me very happy, though quite unlikely thus far. kenny i used to think was a nice guy but now i can't wait for karma to bite him in his ass. i'm having a blistering headache now which may be credited to a continuous lack of sleep but i think it's most probably a withdrawal symptom. i admit. i'm a survivor geek. (like you didn't know that already.)

speaking of survivor, i finally watch the scorned. i wanted to watch this since i saw them filming it on Kill Reality 3years back. omygosh, can a horror movie get more boring? normally i can derive some form of joy from laughing at all the computer graphics and make up but this...... sorry. ethan zohn was good though :D i liek. at least now we know reality shows aren't scripted, cause the cast totally cannot act.

AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH! i just remember i forgot to buy mac nuts for cN :( and maybe my mum. aghhhhhhhhh. and next few days no time. AND THEN YOU WILL BE GONE WITH NOTHING TO MUNCH ON THE WAY. aiya, stupid. wah damn annoyed now. my memory has been deteriorating. too much on my mind recently i suppose. AH. MY IRC(s) UNTIL NOW ALSO HAVEN'T BUY.

sharrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrks.

angry! okay must sleep sleep now.. don't want to be late tomorrow. or get lost for that matter...

Poon. sy says:
lets dress as fairies and go watch winx club

go to hell.

Chut up!

2008-11-18T19:51:00.004+08:00

thought i would be dreaming of fugly bunnies last night after watching Donnie Darko because i spent so much time arguing with myself over it that everytime i closed my eyes i saw that ugly rabbit. Very enjoyable experience the film was. very different, very creative, very orignial and very thought-provoking.

I need to watch this again. but not too soon, i suppose.

anyho, back to dreaming. i dreamt of ariel last night(or this morning..i slept from 6am-10am) instead. hahahaahha. this is the first dream of ariel i remember. very depressing dream...i think it reflects my regret of not going to taiwan with my class girls. Sigh. else while they go shopping and all that, I can go watch ariel's activities. there were so many in the past week! Ayeeeeeeeeeee :(

more about the dream.
it was some kind of awards ceremony or something, and ariel was coming so i went. there was this announcement that some privileged people get to sit next to ariel and one of them was MEIYUN. i was like WHAT !#(!#_!*$)(_*$!()??????????? but being the intelligent me, i followed them and squatted at the floor and sat there haahah then i look at ariel and the look on her face was like whathehell is this person doing. and she asked me what i was doing. i just shy shy turn away hahahahaha. omygosh blogging about this makes me feel like such a loser.

so throughout the thing ariel very nicely talked to the ppl she were sitting with minus me cause i was on the floor in a side :( then suddenly this guy starting talking very loudly. appeared to be some tenant problem and he was scolding his assistant. somehow, it also concerned ariel? she was like "请你要体谅我" but still very nicely talked to other ppl unlike the man. kay. soon she started signing autographs cause the girls were shoving books into her face. then somehow, idk how, the girls started to tell her that i'm a huge fan so she asked me if i also want. i want duh. i started digging in my bag loaded with ariel stuff but i realised there wasn't rly anything autograph-ish. (smacks self) in the end i passed meiyun this file thing to let her sign.

after the thing meiyun passed it back to me. and ariel was in a rush cause some tenant problem remember. and i was also in a rush cause i think i needed to go save my friend or something. so didn't get the chance to say bye or what. sniff sniff. haaahahahaah ok then i left. went to help my friend. only when i went home did i have the opportunity to look at my autograph. i was super super super happy, i even planned how i was going ot take photos of it and scan it and all that and show all my friends and show other ariel fans online. THEN I REALISED IT WROTE TO MEIYUN. I ALMOST DIED. NO REALLY, MY HEART ALMOST STOPPED. AND I JUST KEPT CRYING LIKE CRAZY. CRY CRY CRY CRY CRY and my mum sudd came home then i complained to her and CRY CRY CRY CRY CRY CRY CRY.

cRY UNTIL I WOKE UP. I TOUCH MY FACE, NOT WET. BUT MY HEART STILL VERY PAIN. PAIN PAIN PAIN PAIN PAIN. BECAUSE THE DREAM FELT SO REAL. but then i realised this could never happen because ariel is in Japan now. and i calmed down a bit. but heart still aching.

sobsssss :(

when are the taiwan girls coming back?? i still damn scared that they saw ariel i will turn suicidal.

recently i've been having this kind of frightening dreams where things that could really go wrong go wrong. like losing my ipod and getting lost and the likes. before my dreams would be those visual and graphic ones. for example, psychopath serial killers, people being tortured, people blowing up or falling into bottomless pits in the middle of nowhere. ahahahahahahaahha, siao. one day my dreams will be made into a blockbuster. few days ago i had a dream that dunman high was a super cool school with secret tunnels and basement rooms and i was crawling around in a dress with this spider web scarf because the guitar club people kidnapped me and put a dress on me. and we had rooftop courts where crazy coaches threatened to throw their students down..............hahahahaaha ohmygosh sounds like a stupid movie. my serial killer dreams will be better movies. i mean, Saw is approaching it's sixth sequel now?? -_-

speaking of Saw, total noob here just found out recently that in Singapore we aren't allowed to buy/rent r21 movies. (yah, chut up! my mum says i can watch those.) how annoying. like, especially when our movie ratings are so strict already. snifffff. watching movies on my computer takes the kick out of it.

angry :@ and my sleep patterns are so screwed up.

byebye.

2008-11-13T19:40:00.006+08:00

天使伦伦，你过的好吗？生日快乐。天国，很美吧。
有这么多人和你共度生日，你应该会感到快乐吧。。。大家都还记得耶。
眨眼间，都快两年了。但，回忆依然美好。

刚看了新闻，星光三的李础宁就这样走了。。。

人，真是脆弱阿。
又是一个遗憾，又是一个优秀前途无限的就这样告别了人世。

快乐伪装久了，就只有这办法解放吗？
努力了这么久，结局还是这样吗？

虽然觉得你很傻，但只能说，一路好走。

Last Friday...

2008-11-09T20:53:00.005+08:00

was DOL. but i didn't go.

instead, i went to spotlight with yujia to knit. HAAHAHAHAHA. cause we had class lunch at plaza sing. but when everyone left for grace's house, we shopped around for awhile and decided that we should go knitting! FINALLY I CAN LEARN HOW TO KNIT.

it was quite a disaster. haha. and this nice auntie i think she really 看不下去 so she gave us a few pointers. okay not us, yujia. who claimed she knew how to sew but couldn't even tie a knot. i am a total newb but now i know one or two moves hahaahah. so i'm just a newb.

goodness. i need a better shifu. SAM TEO!

watched Survivor:Gabon at night. BEST EPISODE ALL SEASON. i have new found admiration for the questionable gold medal olympist Crystal. hahahahahaha. byebye marcus! can't wait to see Corinne's face next episode!! Corinne is super bitchy but she has good entertainment value so i hope she stays longer.

other than that...blogthings have the most hilarious blogthings.

What Braindead Means

You are full of energy. You are spirited and boisterous.

You are bold and daring. You are willing to do some pretty outrageous things.

Your high energy sometimes gets you in trouble. You can have a pretty bad temper at times.

You are wild, crazy, and a huge rebel. You're always up to something.

You have a ton of energy, and most people can't handle you. You're very intense.

You definitely are a handful, and you're likely to get in trouble. But your kind of trouble is a lot of fun.

You are usually the best at everything ... you strive for perfection.

You are confident, authoritative, and aggressive.

You have the classic “Type A” personality.

You tend to be pretty tightly wound. It's easy to get you excited... which can be a good or bad thing.

You have a lot of enthusiasm, but it fades rather quickly. You don't stick with any one thing for very long.

You have the drive to accomplish a lot in a short amount of time. Your biggest problem is making sure you finish the projects you start.

You are very intuitive and wise. You understand the world better than most people.

You also have a very active imagination. You often get carried away with your thoughts.

You are prone to a little paranoia and jealousy. You sometimes go overboard in interpreting signals.

You are balanced, orderly, and organized. You like your ducks in a row.

You are powerful and competent, especially in the workplace.

People can see you as stubborn and headstrong. You definitely have a dominant personality.

You are friendly, charming, and warm. You get along with almost everyone.

You work hard not to rock the boat. Your easy going attitude brings people together.

At times, you can be a little flaky and irresponsible. But for the important things, you pull it together.

What's Your Name's Hidden Meaning?

it's good to be braindead.

my room is a camwhore

2008-11-06T23:49:00.026+08:00

the posting of this post has been delayed because uh...my phone ran out of batt when i wanted to take pictures of my end product. and uh..yah. (8/11/08)

some two days ago i opened my wardrobe and my ariel dvd came crashing down onto my foot. owhhs. the blueblack still there.

took this as a hint that it's time to clear my mess...and to reorganise my things cause i was running out of space. and since i haven't got any plans on for today, why not? this time is the real 大扫除.

today's agenda:
1. throw away stuff that i no longer use (割爱) T_T
2. wash my shelves
3. dust my books and figurines
4. reorganise my shelves, wardrobe and table.
5. enjoy what i'm doing

ready when i am..
wait let me turn on some music first...

ok the time now is 10.34:55 a.m and this is how my room currently looks like (poor quality pictures are courtesy of my noob phone) :

thanks to everyone who helped create this mess. which is approx every 8/10 ppl who visit.

12:22:27 p.m. i break for lunch + watch the island: reunion
jenn and kellyanne are hilarious

long way to go still...

1:20:28p.m. start again

2:51:21 p.m. finish sorting and throwing away most of the stuff + clean my table now time to clean and pack my shelves

while i was packing my boxes i came across one where i kept all my memories in. spent quite some time flipping through all the notes, cards and little gifts dating back to as far as lower primary days. ah so thankful for friends like these. who always send my letters or cards on festive seasons even though they know i'll never send them one. and the affectionate(or not) names we used to call each other. used to. one year...that's all it takes. suddenly, the friends forever (or the likes) written on most of the cards seem like mockery.

maybe this year i will send out christmas cards? to all these people who have once made my christmas a little merrier. maybe...

which reminds me...the comp i've been using for years crashed. all my memories :( realisation: it's safer to keep a hardcopy of everything.

other than that box, i found some other interesting things. things that i forgot i had / never knew i had. ahhh...nostalgia. a little bit.

bicycle card hidden in a tally-ho box hidden in a giant dump...still usable(wow)

my first sticker album! (the dinosaur is damn chio pls)

first gun!

first guitar?

i like this card! haha and i realised like most of my birthday cards/letters in recent years have ariel on them. hahaha :D
i used to know how to work a yo-yo. i wanted to make a bikini but don't have the slightest idea how to anymore ;\
hahahahahahaahah the things that come with a burger king kiddy meal
three rulers!!!! friends should know i gave up buying rulers this year because i kept losing them on subsequent days...
ROFL! ONE YEAR TOO LATE.
it grew air bubbles!!! tsktsk` china products. haahah what it says is that i climbed the great wall of china on 10 Nov 2002. which translates into: 我是好汉. eh? those were damn fine tao nan memories :D
oh my goodness lab goggles! this suits my cyclops image.
hahaahah year4 lvl camp art piece. i thought i lost it
okay i think this one is damn classic. my p6 bookstrap which has meaningful words all over it.
unopened....
also unopened
STILL unopened. i never understand why we are made to buy these things...

hahaah shucks i cant find it. a picture of my sec3 result slip. haahaha it has a breakdown on some qualities where our teacher's supposed to grade us for. my compassion component writes displays very strongly. wow i never knew any teacher saw me that way. (which i am, duh.)

moving on...with my books and shelves.

as i arranged and counted my books it felt as though i was moving house again. but i think it was much easier when i moved cause my room used to be much more spacious which explains why everything used to be neater. my room used to be like almost twice the size of my current one so imagine squeezing all my stuff(and more) into this room.... no wonder.

sorting out the books and getting them arranged was the most tiring part of the entire process. my phone does not do justice to how crowded the room was really. there wasn't even any walking space. i think i'm a martial arts expert now because i somehow manged to fly(jump) across my books.

something scary occurred while i was packing my books. WORMS. TINY SILVER WORMS. ok i have no idea what their scientific names are. silverfish? meh, lets just call them bookworms. super super super gross bookworms. even though they were tiny they were just gross.

the first one i spotted was crawling on my arm. IMAGINE MY SHOCK / FRIGHT. i flicked it off at top speed, turned around and saw another one crawling on my book. and i killllllllled it. i squished squashed smashed it with a piece of tissue paper. and if there is one...there would definitely be more. by then i had already cleared one column of books (approx 1xx - 2xx books) so i was super super super fearful that i could had overlooked any. like a potential 100 worms crawling all over my books.

and who knows?? maybe when im wiping the dust off the insides of my shelf, a giant worm will eat my arm. we've seen them in MIB!

i was momentarily stunned and almost immediately started to feel pricks and discomfort throughout my body as though worms were crawling in my clothes or under my skin. terribly eeky feeling. considered giving up cleaning my shelf cause it was really quite disturbing(i am such a wuss) but i persevered and (heng ah) there were only a few.

kay lah. when considering what the leeches did to me in sec3 level camp...i guess this isn't much. imagine 3(or more) leeches sucking on the same spot of ur foot one after another...and and there were others on like other parts of my body. eeeeeeeeeeeek.

(BTW. THERE ARE WORMS NOT BECAUSE MY SHELF IS VERY DIRTY OR I NVR CLEAN IT FOR YEARS. the worms don't exactly grow just because it's dirty -_- i think cause like the paper very degraded already or smthing...)

5:12:03pm
yayyyyyy! it was really tiring to clean this mess but i suppose the bookworms made it a little more interesting...(yes yes i am-used to be- a comic book geek.)
which reminds me...every one who owes me books please do return them soon. i suppose most of you don't remember that you owe me books already so here i am reminding you (: most of the books i think i know who i lent them to but for the rest i'm quite clueless. it really really really annoys me to have missing books. so pleassssssse if your conscience allows, RETURN. (at strategic timings) here's the list of missing books:

Gashbell: bk25
Tsubasa: Reservoir Chronicle: bk 1 - 12
M.A.R: bk10 - 14
Flame of Recca: bk 17 - END(30?)
Harlem Beat: bk22
Suzuka(liang feng): bk1
Alica 19th: bk 1 - 4

5:24:17pm
moving on to my vcds/dvds/cds...

wardrobe where my discs used to be. now it's my super cute picture which can't be seen using my phone camera. maybe i will scan it into my com.

6:23:16pm
figurine shelf done...now just have to tidy up.

while i was cleaning my stuff my jigsaw bearbrick's arm fell off. even though i fixed it back it's still damn ominous..goodness.

6:34:28
YAY I'M DONE! NOW I JUST HAVE TO THROW MY BAGS OF TRASH DOWNSTAIRS. 需要支援！
OH MY GOODNESS I HAVE BEEN CLEANING MY ROOM FOR ALMOST EXACTLY 8HOURS. cool leh, it's accurate down to the minute.

my room looks(feels) much more spacious now:D

i like tidying up my room actually! just never got to it because previously every time i attempt to do some kind of cleaning up, someone just comes to mess it up again. especially my bookshelf! and when my books are not placed neatly back onto the shelf because it requires more reorganizing, they pack onto my tables and everything else :@

okay..i'm going to do something compassionate now. like build a house for the poor.

Yes, We can.

2008-11-05T22:51:00.005+08:00

and so it seems, by taking a huge step, America has voted for change. Obama is indeed a very inspirational speaker and we'll see if he delivers.

Change.

This is one thing i've been promised too many times this year but have yet to see. Only change i've seen thus far is probably climate change. (cues laughter) or recession? but no, i'm talking about change which is within our(human) control.

On my part I guess I've changed a little. Out of school, i'm glad that i'm now able to reach out to other people such that i no longer feel so sheltered, having been blessed with a somewhat protected environment where i never had to worry about simple things like education, shelter or food.

Yet, in many ways i feel i've lost my enthusiasm.

In school , change is more difficult. I suppose i'm pretty much the same person, a little quieter that's all. Somehow I don't think the school has exposed us enough; they are still too protective of us. Or traditional/cheena some might put it. I'm glad we have SHHC and SC to plan different activities for us but...seriously? i think we can do better. i've always thought we can do better. then again, i was never really into any stuff DH plans for us except maybe excursions to Science Centre. (i am such a geek) Okay, maybe i'm not in position to comment because i'm not the most enthusiastic of people but even so...

It's quite heartening to see Americans stand by change. I think this is one thing Singaporeans are afraid of and because we are a democratic society, some words are not meant for blogs. This is implied in more than one way.

Recently i've spoken to some people and surprisingly(or not) most of us share a consensus on several different issues. (phew, i'm not the only one.) But the problem is that everyone knows there is an issue but nobody is willing to do anything about it. Or in the position to do anything about it. Which brings us to the next question.

So, what(the hell) are the people in position doing?

Oh well. There's always next year. Lets remain hopeful. Hope is the key in change i suppose?

(sidetrack: so are the orientation forms out yet? why i still don't have. sniff :( was i to get them myself -_- super unclear announcement if there was any.)

PS. AHHH. BERNIE AND HENRY ARE OUT!! :(( i liek them leh! i think they are the most interesting team. haha. anyone else thinks bernie looks like jess hsuan? o.O

Nonetheless, somethings never change.

Happy Halloween (Belated)

2008-11-05T18:55:00.007+08:00

holidays so far have been busy and my nose is peeling! T_T finally caught 20th century boys but it was a huge disappointment. in fact there have been very few good movies this year compared to the previous.

so, ANYWAYS.

this post took me forever because i never could find the cable. kay, fine. i never got to finding the cable. thanks to a funny coincidence, i have it now anyway.

won a pair of tickets to this halloween thingy at the night safari from OMY. haha, who says chronic computer usage does not have its benefits? somewhere during promos they dropped me an email which goes smthing like 'first 10 to reply wins' and i'm like 24/7 so ta-dah! -_- meh. brought ali with me who had never been to the night safari before O.O i was quite shocked that such people exist actually...

rest of the post will consist of mainly pictures because i'm tired + dirty and need to bathe + have dinner.

PS. oh my, joe russell is hilarious.

我生病了

2008-11-04T03:23:00.005+08:00

i must remind myself to stay bilingual.

HW. IT FINALLY CAME TO AN END!!! says:
what have u been doing recently?
HW. IT FINALLY CAME TO AN END!!! says:
maybe can gimme some inspiration
xopag; says:
watching ariel
xopag; says:
HAAHAHAHA
HW. IT FINALLY CAME TO AN END!!! says:
hmm
HW. IT FINALLY CAME TO AN END!!! says:
O.O
HW. IT FINALLY CAME TO AN END!!! says:
other than that?
HW. IT FINALLY CAME TO AN END!!! says:
haha
xopag; says:
still watching ariel

other than watching ariel, today has been an awful day. have been sick all weekend with sinus so my life these days have basically revolved around lying in bed, sneezing, coughing, taking steroids and watching ariel.

finished watching legend of condor heroes 2008! took me one week but it's worth it. i don't think this show needs me to sell it any further...but this is my favourite version of LOCH for simple reasons. haahahaah.

more about my awful day. woke up to the worst of moods when i couldn't find my specs. searched my room for 30mins and still couldn't find it!! was very very very annoyed with my disappearing specs. was damn afraid this was going to disappear like my green one :( 1hr+ later i found it under a plastic bag. WHAT??

i woke up quite late cause i was still sick so i searched for my specs, had breakfast, read ariel on the papers, searched for my specs some more, watched some tv and had lunch -_- after lunch (about 1) i started to do my I&R. super last minute i know. but i was feeling so sick for the weekend that thinking was so much of a chore.

ANYWAY. when i finished my I&R around 2 MY PRINTER DIED. okay not my printer but the computer connected to my printer. and i had neither the software nor the time to attempt(and risk) to connect another computer to the printer. and so i searched everywhere for a printing shop and finally got scammed at marine parade. 60cents a piece???? but it was running a monopoly and i was pressed for time so i pretty much did not have a choice.

dropped by videoezy on the way home. i think video rentals are overpriced but i love movies, so no choice there either. i already have an extensive selection on my computer but it's different to watch on screen of course. think i'm going to start a personal movie blog so 10yrs later i can remind myself which titles to rewatch(or not) and why.

felt better when i got home and started watching ariel though. watch her on all sorts of variety shows till like now - old and new. idk how i missed some, slack too much this year :( hahahahahaha.

LOVEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE!

New.

2008-11-03T19:02:00.000+08:00

TIME TO GET ORGANISED.

organised is such a big word. still, i think i'm ready for a change.

i archived my previous 836 posts made since the end of sec1 because it was getting messy and i hated what i was reading / becoming. (think monster post)

i actually prefer what i've written prior to these 836 posts. prior to growing up. prior to my becoming of a monster. hahahaahahah. i would refer you to the post but it's been archived. i've archived them under a new link which people who know me well should be able to guess. else, google works too. should be locking it soon though.

for my eyes only!

gosh. somehow i feel like i used to write better. like, becoming a monster impeded my ability to express my thoughts and emotions.

still love ariel though :D

very very unhealthy! but she loses weight at some ownage rate. can't wait for her new show :D but why every time she acts with joe she's required to put on weight :@

43rd Golden Bell Awards

2008-10-31T23:38:00.000+08:00

ARIEL WINS WINS WINS WINS WINS WINS WINS WINS WINS WINS WINS WINS WINS WINS WINS WINS BEST LEAD ACTRESS! LOVE LOVE LOVE LOVE LOVE LOVE LOVEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE.

I SPAMMED LIKE ONE MILLION PEOPLE WITH NON-WORDS )$U)(#U%)@J AOFIHJAOUSHF AGOUASHGOUAHSGOUGHAOUSHF. AHHAHAHAHAHAHAHA!!!! I AM SOOOOOOOO HAPPY. THIS IS THE BEST BIRTHDAY PRESENT FOR ARIEL I WAS TALKING ABOUT. I'M NOT THAT PRESENT I'M NOT CRAZY HAHAHAHAHAHA.

OOOOOOOOHMYGOODNESS.

SOOOOOOOOOOO HAPPY.

5HRS OF WAITING FOR THEM TO CALL HER NAME SINCE SHE WALKED THE RED CARPET AND MISSING SURVIVOR GABON ALL TOTALLY WORTH IT. WOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO

SEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE!!!

I TOLD ALL OF YOU ARIEL WAS A SUPER GOOD ACTRESS!!! NOW IT'S PROVEN THAT SHE IS THE QUEEN. WHO CARES ABOUT FATED TO LOVE YOU??? JUST BECAUSE THE SHOW ENJOYS A LOT OF POPULARITY (FOR IDK WHAT REASON) DOESNT MAKE THE QIAO EN A BETTER ACTRESS THAN ARIEL!!!!!!!!!!!

ARIEL IS REALLLLLLLY WOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO OMG IM SO HAPPY IM LIKE SMLIING / LAUGHING I DONT KNOW WHAT IM DOING I THINK IM CRAZY HAHAHAHA OMG I WANT TO PARTY WITH ALL HER FANS BUTBUTBUT IM IN MY ROOM SITTING ON MY BED AND SMILING AT MY SCREEN STUPIDLY ALONE.

. says:
i tink QIAO EN
. says:
NUHHBAD LOR
xopag; says:
ya
xopag; says:
but ariel still acts btr
. says:
no
. says:
u r jus BIASED
xopag; says:
WHAT
xopag; says:
IT IS PROVEN ALRDY

HAHAHAHAHAAH. OMG I ALMOST DIED OF A HEART ATTACK OK WHEN I RUSHED HOME AND REALISED THAT CHNL 49 DOESNT SHOW GOLDEN BELL ANYMORE CAUSE LIKE THEY CHANGED CHNL 49 TO A NEWS STATION SOME TIME AGO. THANK GOD I FOUND A LIVE STREAM MY GOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOODNESS.

ARIELLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLL!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

HAHAHAHAAHAHAHA. OHMYGOODNESS ARIEL AND JOE REALLY LIKE SOME COUPLE HAHAHAAHAHAH BUT I THINK CLOSER THAN A COUPLE SUPER CLOSE BFFS.

HAHAHAHAHA.

okokokok calm down calm down. CALM DOWN LAH AGNES ONG!!!!!!!!!!!!! HAHAHAHAHA I CANNOT CALM DOWN OMG I HAVE BEEN HIGH FOR LIKE 30MINUTES ALREADYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYY. GOSHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH.

WOAH I WAS LIKE MORE NERVOUSE FOR THIS THAN FOR ORAL PRESENTATION TODAY WHICH IS QUITE CRAZY HAHAHAHAAHAHAHAHAHAHA.

OMGGGGGGGEEEEEEE.

ZX CONGRATULATED ME HAHAAH SAYING THAT ARIEL WIN WAS LIKE ME WINNING(TO ME). TRUE TRUE. HEHEAHEHEHAAHA. LOVEEEEEE YOU ARIEL!!!! I WAS LIKE "LIN YI CHEN LIN YI CHEN NO QIAO EN NO QIAO EN LIN YI CHEN LIN YI CHEN" AND WHEN THE SHUCKS WHATS HIS NAME ANNOUNCED ARIEL'S NAME I SCREAMED> AHHAHAHAHAAHHA

WHATS EVEN MORE COOL RIGHT IS THAT THIS IS THE FIRST TIME THEY ALLOW IDOL DRAMAS INTO THE NOMINATION LIST. PREVIOUSLY IT WAS ALL IDK THOSE HOKKIEN DRAMAS OR SMTHING. BUT ANYWAY THIS IS THE FIRST TIME THERE WERE IDOL DRAMA NOMINATIONS AND AND ARIEL WON. SO ARIEL IS No.1.

LIKE THE BEST THING THAT HAPPENED ALL DAY AFTER THAT DISASTROUS Q&A SESSION WHICH LEFT ME HALF INSANE/SUICIDAL AND THOROUGHLY DISAPPOINTED!! ARIEL THERAPY HELPED TAKE MY MIND OFF IT AND NOW THIS IS JUST :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D

WOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOSHHHHHHH.

WOAHMYGOSH 12MM ALREADY AHAHAHAHAHHAAHAH SHUCKS SURVIVOR JUST ENDED I MUST GO OFFLINE NOW AND TURN OFF MY PHONE IN CASE I RECEIVE ANY SPOILERS BEFORE I CAN WATCH IT ONLINE.

AHAHAHAHAHAHAHA.

WOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO :D:D:D:D:D

hehehehe. happy day! CELEBRATE ALL NIGHT.

CAN ARIEL PLEASE COME TO SINGAPORE ALREADY!! :(

伦伦，依晨得奖了，你在天上看到了吗？你,也很开心吧。。。